10/27/25 - Anchoring in the environment that forced me to prove and magnetize easily
Ended up waking up pretty early cause I needed to wash my hair, do my makeup and also thought I was going to journal a bit. Part of me was a little nervous today because I knew this was probably going to be one of my biggest tests to see how far my anchoring has come. Testing it in an environment that forced me to “prove”, also where I’m pretty hinged and unhinged at the same time.
I thought my parent company was coming today, so a little voice inside of me was like “will they think I’m too quiet or not good enough” they don’t really know me. But I had to tell myself and again constantly remind myself “I’m a lion” people can feel me even before I say something. I do not need to prove anymore.
Washed my hair, blowdried and straightened my hair, and did my makeup. While I was getting ready, I realized I’m literally just going back to how I was before I had to “prove” myself. But now I know why I am like this, so people’s words don’t get to me anymore. I get what “integrating” really means. And that “confidence” is what’s creating my elevated aura.
Then was a bit hungry so decided I wanted to grab something from the breakfast area. Old me would have texted my coworker to see if she wanted to go together. New me is like the more people and the less chaos the better. Grabbed a banana and made a slice of toast with my classic combo jam and butter. Idk what is it but it’s like a personal comfort food item. Came back into my room and called my mom, also did my prayers. I genuinely think anchoring from prayers has been the biggest game charger for my nervous system. Now when something goes wrong, like me almost missing my flight, I just know god already knows. I already prayed about it, so I don’t panic and start praying. I stay calm, and remind myself that my peace is my prayer in trust. Had some time so watched 10 minutes of Gilmore Girls before heading out.
I decided to call a Waymo to avoid contain my peace. lmao it was fun. As soon as I got to work I was surprisingly super calm, even with someone I would banter with all the time. It wasn’t in a shy, nervous way. It was in a calm, confident, and non-overextending way. The new girl came in a couple of minutes later, and even when talking to her or showing her things around, I was super quiet. I don’t feel the need to yell anymore to be heard. People come down to me to hear me.
A couple of minutes later started posting all the Diwali content. For a second, I was going to follow some people I met at the event, but then I was like naw that’s being an opportunist. They’ll find me. Lmaoo and they did. Even the girl I wanted to go up to talk to, but didn’t. She found me and added me on IG. Old me would have felt like if I didn’t follow them, they would never follow me. I would chase everything.
It tbh kind of feels woodoo ish but I get why. It’s like i’m sending them energy vibes, but I do see signs of things happening “easier” for me. The same things I would have to work for before. Even this event was pretty easy. I barely put in work like that. Normally, I would fight for negotiations, designs, vendor quality, etc. I would also fight to make connections, but people were introducing themselves to me at the event. I wasn’t really forcing myself to go up to anyone.
Anyways, me and the new girl worked some more. Took our marketing meeting, and again was calm. I feel like I need to stop being so shocked and just accept it. It truly just feels like I woke up one day and was just calm. I have to remind myself that I’m the one that’s staying in peace and making active decisions to keep my peace. I am putting in the work, and I have been silently for the past year. It feels easy now, but it was time.
Anyways my other coworker came, my boss came and then we went to lunch. At the lunch spot, I got a Cesar salad with chicken and there was barely anything vegetarian for the new girl. I’m getting pretty good at just observing energy now and letting people figure it out. I sensed she was trying to figure out what to eat. Old me would have saw this and would have tried figuring out options so she didn’t feel left out. New me was like she’ll figure it out, and she did to some level. She just ordered a salad. I did what I do with my mom, see she needs help but let her figure it out first. The new guy also came and joined, and I still didn’t feel the need to introduce myself or make him feel welcomed. I noticed he was a bit nervous, but I stayed quiet until he came up to me. Lmao he said my hair looked like a lion, and I’m taking it as a compliment because just him mentioning the word lion was a fascinating to me, especially since I’m in my lion phase.
Even my coworkers were trying to talk to me. It was almost like they were so fascinated by me, especially since they’ve seen me at my lowest points.
Anyways came back to the office, worked the rest of the day. Although I was really tried to get through it. Opened up the candles and 3 of them were broken, so need to order a couple of more.
Also me and my other coworker gave our gifts to my boss. He was pretty happy. I feel like other people see him as a boss and take their professional anger out on him personally. But tbh I don’t think that’s the right thing to do.
Walked home with my coworkers and just had a chill night. Ordered a chicken burrito with some tacos, watched Gilmore Girls, and journaled. It was a good way to decompress
At night, there was this one video that I feel like felt a bit extra but I posted it because I knew it was worth roaring for.
Intuition - Me being super chill even in an environment that was once high energy was interesting and shocking. Shocked at the people following me too.
9/10 - Proud of myself for staying anchored
Energy:
25% - seeing my coworkers
25% - meeting new people
25% - decompressing
25% - anchoring even at work
