10/9/25 - Protected my energy today

Tbh I feel like I made huge progress today. Again, wanted to wake up early but ended up waking up late and tbh I think it was a blessing in disguise.

Had a meeting scheduled with my boss today and really needed to finalize the etsy order for the candles to make sure they were delivered on time. Usually, when I have deadlines, I’m a mess. I get into this karen mode, but today I was just so chill. I was listening to bit of music and just getting things done. My new thinking face is like a pouting face. Before my marketing call, I made Avacado and toast.

Anyways, had my marketing call and I was also super chill. Was focused on not being a spider. Just a lion calmly stating what I need to say. I feel like before I was scared that if I did prove my dominance I wouldn’t be respected. And honestly idk if I am with the whole lion thing, but I’m trusting myself.

The new person asked for a call, and I was so chill on the call too.

After that things got a bit scary, but somehow I was grounded through it all. Military people were in my neighborhood and block and there was a lot of phone calling going around, but I was super calm. And for the first time, I wasn’t scared of my calmness. I didn’t think it was an indication of something bad happening.

It’s the calmness I used to feel in my room, but like I said yesterday now I feel it everywhere I go from myself. I was listening to myself. Was my intuition scared? No. The little bit of fear was other’s people fear, which I was not taking on because I was touching the ground and just coming back to my own body. I kept asking myself “what do I feel” and felt calm for the most part. I had trust. And knew even this was a lesson on anchoring.

On the call, my boss was so fake, scattered and everywhere. But this was the first time I was just noticing his behavior and was just calm. His energy was not affecting mine.

After that, I had a call with some random business person and normally I would be nervous but today I didn’t even overthink. I just imagined myself going in as a lion. Not directing the call, and that’s exactly what I taught the new person. You have to chill out.

Ate a bit after, made coffee for the taste, and watched some TV with mom.

I had already placed the order for the candles in the morning, and then just finalized the label. So all good with that now.

Watched some gilmore girls and worked a bit more. Was going to go out for yoga but decided I wanted to stay inside instead. Answered the new girl’s questions.

Went to the mandir for a bit. Was a bit nervous but did it.

Bought the rest of my flights, now just need to do the get the hotel for LA. Now, just chilling.

PS, I liked the new N’s soundcloud post lmaooo. It’s like a harmless crush right now. I don’t think he’s my person. He’s too fast-paced and I don’t like people or things that rush me. I like excitement but I also like routine and predictability.

At night, lmfao my mom joined this random zoom for mediation and I did it with her. She basically said everything I say and then they do 20 minutes of mediation, which my mom did. I did it for a bit too.

My mom was oversharing, so I yelled at her about it. But of course she does what I do and doesn’t know it comes from her anxiety to be liked and not judged.

For dinner, I made Mom I a grilled cheese. It was pretty good.

7/10 - Today was kind of scary but I’m honestly so impressed at my ability now to be chill through everything. Never in a million years did I think this day would come.

Intuition - This is all a part of my anchoring lesson. Building a foundation so strong no one can move it.

Energy:
30% - reengaging with my own energy
40% - working
30% - focusing on not taking on someone else’s energy