9/28/25 - There’s still more to learn
Last night, at 12am I literally decided I needed to get off of social media, so I downloaded the Steppin app again which basically blocks access until you walk. Before I made this decision, I literally went on IG and was just so overwhelmed and it just felt like SOOO much noise.
And I know I talked about this a couple of days ago too where I knew the thing for me was to detach from my phone and I was fully convinced I was just going to lose my phone or break it. But like I also mentioned, that wouldn’t teach me anything because I would just get a new one.
The universe is literally making the noise sooooo loud that I just can’t take it anymore. It’s literally suffocating.
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As soon as I got rid of all my social media, it almost felt like the silence felt loud. But not in a bad way, just in an out of my comfort zone type of way.
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Woke up and did a saje clense and journaled but I was instantly feeling much better today. Like I shut out all the unnecessary voices. It felt mentally peaceful, like I could hear myself again.
Idk how much I touched on this, but I also started “third person journaling,” almost if I’m the author of my own story.
I still have to learn how to tone out all the noise to create and listen to myself, protect my energy & not let people’s negative energy affect me, create a routine for my content so I can create from overflow and not get overwhelmed and have unbelievable trust.
Without all this, literally, I will crack and all my hard work will go away and I won’t be successful. So literally the universe can’t give me things right now. I’m not ready, and I in my heart also know this too.
If I do blow up right now, I’m going to get overwhelmed to make content and either make shity content or not make content at all. If people start commenting mean stuff, I’d also go crazy and take it to heart. Everyone is also probably going to be jealous and will send negative energy so I need to learn how to protect too. Also, trust. I’m going to be self-employed. Money is so important to me, that I need to trust in the universe fully because it’ll go up and down.
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Mom made pudla for breakfast, my other friend came to pick up the underskirt so chatted with her for a bit, we ate, watched tv, and then I went on a walk. Saw my dog person again! Came home and showered, and then my best friend came to put on the saree. I wore it too and made a video for the other girls. For some reason, I was super excited to make the video.
Ate lunch, then took a nap. I was so convinced that because I ate early, I wouldn’t have had to nap.
Woke up, made pasta for dinner with mom. It was fun and our bonding time. We made marry me pasta with mushrooms. Then mom and I picked out the jewelry sets. This time I just wore the blouses.
My boss also messaged me saying the boy was delivered, so aww congrats to him.
Overall, I’ve also been eating way more too, so not a big fan of that.
Did another saje cleanse too.
I went on IG for like 4 minutes today and tbh didn’t even feel like it. I also feel like I haven’t gotten most of my amazon returns back, so my credit card bill has been insane, and I need to look into it.
8/10 - The energy was way lighter and chill today. It didn’t feel as heavy as the past couple of days. Mom and I were just at home today.
Intuition - I still want some sort of blessing and I know god will give me it. This I get will take time but that doesn’t mean I don’t deserve anything.
Energy:
100% - reflecting/calming down/cleaning aura
