2/23/26 -

- feel my posture getting better like wow air can finally go to my lower belly
- worked out a bit
- washed hair
- wanting to be first because of my ego and felt grief
- felt a lost in frequency
- maybe I am still waiting for an audience, need to do something that I would do even if no one saw
- felt like I needed to prove myself to the photographer caught myself in real time
- felt anxiety like I wasn’t good enough
- took a nap to calm my nervous system
- went to aldi
- realized I give my brain way too much importance - like a model gives importance to her
- feel like all my themes are repeating again
- mom still sick, so worried
- sent it to the photographer and she literally liked the idea I came up with in the first 5 minutes on friday