2/15/26 - Feeling my aura

Last night, I end up doing a whole laser treatment with the at home laser I had ordered.

Woke up and rested for a bit before I went to go shower. I walked to the beauty parlor to get my eyebrows done, but my technician wasn’t in. Went to the bathroom and decided I was going to try doing a dyson blowout, so I chat gpt how to do it and followed exactly that. I wet my hair a bit, put mouse in it, and then used the wow spray and smoothed it out. To my surprise my hair was straight by the smoothing part. I didn’t even need to straighten it. Then used the curlers to do hot and cool shot curls. Left it for 30 minutes before brushing my hair. Did my makeup in the meantime.

Today’s goal was to look confident. I ended up wearing a brown jacket and my outfit was just working. Dropped my mom and her friend off at the mandir, and then drove to rosemont.

I was running 20 minutes late. Instead of rushing, I decided It was whatever. When I get there I get there. And usually I always get to places right on time, even if I’m late. By the time I got the restaurant, I was only 5 minutes later than everyone else. So I wasn’t even late. I was technically right on time.

My friend was introducing her boyfriend to us, and even though I was initially a bit overstimulated because of the parking lot, I found my grove. Everyone was stunned when I walked in. I like to think I have aura now. I had fun and everyone was flowing in conversation. Nothing felt awkward.

Then I drove to the mandir and was at the mandir for so many hours. It was packed and I saw everyone. All the rishta aunties kept looking at me, which was getting a bit annoying because they would say “Ohh, it’s that girl.” Like how many times a month are they going to say that. Ngl I did want to look hot, so I did make myself visible in front of some people. Including a guy that had a crush on me before. Saw a few cute guys too.

At the mandir - I wasn’t deeply praying like I did before. Because now I don’t pray from fear or deep lack, so I didn’t really know how to connect with god. I just tried saying thank you and tried focusing on the lesson. The importance of the day is shiv’s grounded side merged with shakti, his alive side. It was truely union of two parts of life, not what post people of just marriage. It’s because saying you can’t be truly grounded without being alive. That I do believe and did learn a couple of months ago.

The priest threw a flower into the crowd and it literally landed in my lap. Felt like god was truly trying to bless me type of moment.

Overall, I did feel more at peace. I didn’t care about anything related to work. I told myself today was my day off and that’s a tomorrow problem.

We got home at 10pm and I was sooo tired, so I still took a sativa edible. Tried watching a couple of bollywood movies, ate some food, and literally knocked out with my contacts and lights on.

Curiosity - trying to get perfect dyson curls, sativa edible
Joy - Looking hot and everyone’s head turning, finding a perfect fit, the flower landing on my lap, edible

Intuition - I feel like people can see my aura now

8/10 - Tired and busy day

Energy:
25% - looking hot
25% - driving
25% - mandir
25% - meeting my friend’s boyfriend