2/3/26 - Embodied entitlement, wrong container

Last night, I decided I really needed to lock in to the frequency of this one thing I want. Right now, I still get shaky when the headlines get too loud.

In my dream, I was faced with the same scary scenario I’m usually faced with but this time I had the entitlement I would have if I actually had that one thing I really want. And I made it out without any harm and with such confidence just because I acted so entitled and confident that the other person thought I had it too and didn’t even question it. There wasn’t even a single doubt on my face. That’s how much audacity and entitlement I carried. It made the person in front of me look shaky and stupid for even daring to ask me something that felt so “obvious” that they didn’t ask me. And I did all this in my dream without even having the actual thing. If they actually asked, I would have been screwed.

I woke up and that’s what it hit me as the missing frequency characterist. Entitlement. The same entitlement that even comes with money. Until now, it just felt wrong and almost forbidden. Like how can you have the entitlement of a wealthy person, without even being wealthy. Feels delusional. But that is the frequency that all wealthy people do carry. It’s the characterist that all people with the thing I want carry.

But now to ground this and truly make sense of it.

Chat says - What “embodied entitlement” does is give safety and surplus. It removes fear. Money gives options. It gives fearlessness (money can buy most things), decisiveness (each decision isn’t a make or break because you’re loaded, so you just pick, rule-bending confidence (rules are made for structures, money buys structures, and relaxed authority (because again you can literally buy your way out).

And we’re learning all of this in politics right now too.

To hold money energetically, you have to receive without guilt, ask without apologizing, expect ease, and not over-justify presence.

Just thinking about all these rich guys - they feel so entitled to ask for ANYTHING. They keep receiving because that’s how important they feel. They want ease for everything. The cars they buy, the restaurants they dine at. Everything should feel at ease. And they know their presence is important because they have money.

It’s crazy how I literally just saw “rumor has it” yesterday and it literally showed all this. I felt it. At this point, even the rom coms I watch feel like they match with my lessons. The guy literally took his private jet for a lunch in his county club. His presence was wanted at a gala. The crazy part was the dude also traveled the world and said peace comes from being present. What I learned last week. Even simple rom coms feel like spiritual alignment content.

Chat says - entitlement is just the nervous system’s expectation of safety and access.

When I’ll move with entitlement, it’s telling the universe “I move this way, and reality organizes around it.” I choose what I want to engage with “because I’m so rich” I can have everything and anything. And chat said I develop tolerance for being misunderstood. People will want to humble me but now I’m not threatened by it and just know it’s misalignment.

Now to again stay grounded. Because saying “entitled” just makes more sense in my head but in reality I have to be grounded too or it can go sideways.

It’s not about I deserve this. It’s about choosing things that meet my standards. The entitlement is in my response.

Before the new year, mom and I went to a fancy restaurant and I was really upset that the service was bad. My entitlement is silent, no drama nothing. I just wouldn’t go back there or recommend it to anyone. Making a big deal out of something not matching is insecurity and arrogance.

Reminded me of N - we went to a winery that he was a club at and they didn’t serve us for so long, so he was so heated. Made such a big deal out of it by emailing them and everything because he was new to luxury. He spent his life his scarcity, so now that he had the money for fancy things he wanted everyone to give him that luxury and when it didn’t he would be pissed. Tbh even in that moment it felt off putting. Like chill. And now I get why.

Ungrounded entitlement says: “They’re idiots.”
Collapsed grounding says: “Maybe I’m wrong about myself.”

Grounded entitlement says:

“Noted. Adjusting. Still me.”

No drama. No meaning-making spiral.

It’s all about having so much power, that you have a choice and voice.

It’s crazy how everyone always says the poor are voiceless. It’s like all these things are finally making sense to me about the wealth disparity. I feel like I was too not rich to even think about all this. It felt so far, something I didn’t need to worry about.

But now I also know, that’s also one of the missing characteristics to be a frequency match.
-
Had a lot of energy in the morning, so got my steps in and by the end of it I didn’t even feel like I had just walked. Almost like wow, I’ve never experienced this much energy in my life. Chat said it’s because I was using it to be hypervigilant and stuff. That’s why I was always just so tired. Made my bed, showered, coffee.. it’s becoming a good morning routine now.

Worked for a bit but wasn’t really feeling it today, especially after my campaign didn’t go live yesterday.

Yesterday, I realized I needed to also figure out my PCOS problems before getting my person. It felt like an insecurity, so needed to order an at home laser and I really need to add lifting to my routine. Taking it day by day, now that my morning routine is becoming more stable, and I just added walking in the morning today.

Ate, watched TV with mom. Worked some more, and then watched a movie on Netflix. Took a nap.

Worked some more, watched another movie.

At night, I realized I still think my ideas are great but the container feels off. Like the email not loading correctly, the push not going out at the right time on the first day, the in-app ad not going live on the first day, the in-app ad size still being wrong. It all just feels like such messy energy and so chaotic. I created the assets without any friction and everything after that has just been a shit show. At this point, my “energy” is gone and I don’t even care.

My local mandir that we always went to just cares about money now and you can feel it in the air. The energy isn’t clean. That’s how I feel about the app. The energy just isn’t clean, and sure my ideas probably didn’t work, but at the same time the container was leaking too.

On the point of leaky energy - My current boss is only the boss because my old boss wanted to keep it in the family in a slick way. My current boss doesn’t deserve it at all. And today, I saw an ad for my old boss’ new company on our app. He also used the format that I used to use for my posts. The ones that went viral. Everything about this just screams like negative energy, manipulation, and feels just gross. My current boss doesn’t even really care. He’s just collecting a paycheck for as long as he can, by listening to whatever the parent company tells him to do.

I ended up deleting the app because it just felt wrong to have the same guys match with my friends. That is not the energy I want from my person.

Idk I can just feel it all in my body. It just felt so hollow today. I’m convinced I was only supposed to like the app for a day to show myself that I have the capacity for love again, and to show me the gaps.

All this is kind of starting to feel intolerable, and reminds me that I actually don’t want anything to do with the app right now. Especially if the container is leaky. Maybe I just need to focus on events, where I can keep my frequency within the container too.

Idk if I’m going to quit, idk what I would do next. Nothing make sense right now. But I just know things are aligning.

I keep asking myself about my purpose and how everything will just fall into place.

Ended up watching a movie before bed and it was sooo good. I love historical movies. Tbh all the movies I’ve been watching lately feel like such a hit.

Intuition - I need to have ultimate respect for myself now with high standards

8/10 - Slightly overwhelmed knowing I got to move like I’m entitled, but hoping it just becomes embodied soon and I can do it without thinking about it.

Energy:
33% - more energy
34% - feeling off about work
33% - resting