6/25 - Showing up as the role

I woke up and immediately started working. I genuinely wanted to wake up super early so I could finish my journals but I was having trouble sleeping so I ended up waking up at like 10am. I’ve also just been having hard core productivity issues, like I just can’t force myself to work. And idk what’s going on. There’s absolutely barely anything that gets me in the zone. 

Before my meetings, I decided to go ahead and post a mirror picture from my friend K’s birthday. The disaster bday. It’s def a process and out of my comfort zone because I definitely feel like do people really need to see my face everyday. But I need to. I need to think of myself as a brand. Shalini Mody. I need to detach from myself. So I posted about doing a slick back for the first time. The anxiety is all in my head. I’m projected what I feel about visibility. I love when influencers post stories about their lives. I don’t think they’re conceited. It’s like watching a reality show. 

Also my cousin messaged me saying she was obsessed with me and my content and see’s the glow, so it was a good reminder that people do see and to keep going. 

Anyways, took my meetings. I had a call with BGM for an upcoming event and honestly love how getting calls with new people doesn’t even scare me anymore, at one point I felt that level of anxiety that I’m feeling now for social media. 

Out of nowhere I also decided on a new tagline for Dil Mil. We’ve been marinating on it for a couple of days but this one just felt right. Ever since I took charge, dil mil has been a direct extension of me and my beliefs. 

After that, I went to target to get a couple of things, and then came home to try on clothes and pack but was honestly just dragging. I didn’t even end up finish packing and just went to bed to make it a tomorrow problem.

Intuiton - I’m starting to do things/learn the skills of a content creator which is again crazy because I’m a marketer already.

6/10 - Felt a bit overwelhmed by the end of the night

Energy:
20% - fighting myself to show up as a content creator
30% - working
50% - packing, traveling anxiety, overwelhmed