6/23 - Looking for validation

Today I was completely crashing out from my feelings from yesterday. Until now, I thought that you really just had to get rid of people completely in order to unlock new versions of yourself but I saw that these people especially my friend E’s cousin was herself in the same environment. I thought I couldn’t be myself because of E but she was able to be herself. Same with my other friend K and J. J was still able to be herself in front of K. So why does everyone hate me, why do they despise me?

I had a huge crash out on this because like why me? Was I doing something wrong? It was just super confusing, but maybe this was my sign that I can be myself with the same people and that I don’t need to cut everyone off. Maybe the blocker was just me this whole time and my perception.

Clearly my friend’s cousin doesn’t give a shit. And that’s her power that she’s not looking for validation and I am.

Anyways, spent the rest of the day continuing to crash out and order clothes for the bach.

5/10 - felt all over the place

Intuition - I need to stop looking for validation

Energy:
100% - crash out