6/2 - Unnessecary overthinking
Last night, me and my old roommate ended up getting high. At one point, I was just full on blabbering, and told them why I was crashing out about N and meeting the random guy at Del sur (my soulmate preview), also was vibing to music, and it was great. Right before, my friend did say she gets super anxious almost like she can’t take it sometimes, so I was honestly worried about her even when I was high. Eventually though, I just knocked out. We had to wake up early to pack because my old roommate was leaving first.
The game plan was to also leave the hotel by 9am, so we could grab coffee and bagels and chill in the hotel lobby for a bit before leaving, so all of us got ready. Said our byes to my old roommate, and left too. We ended up going to a diner that was chill. There my other two friends took edibles, so they were panicking about making it to the airport on time. We quickly rushed, called an uber, and left.
Oddly, I was very chill and calm while they were freaking out. I knew everything was going to be okay, but they were panicking and coming up with plan B’s and everything. When we got to the airport, literally no one said anything and got their bags checked in. Since the airport was small, our gates were next to each other, so we ended up going through security together too. Lmao one of my friend’s forgot to put the champagne bottle in her checked bag, so we literally realized at TSA and threw the whole bottle away. Lowkey such a core memory and also iconic.
Anyways, they even made it before boarding. I said my goodbyes and we left.
I wanted coffee, so I went to look for a cafe but couldn’t find a good one, so instead found one of the ashwaganda drinks and chips.
My flight was super packed, but luckily, there was no one in the middle seat. Even talked to my neighbor for a bit. For some reason, I was sooo hungry, so I ate my chips and fell for the first 2 hours. Woke up and decided to watch moana 2. It’s been on my list.
After landing, got my uber, and came home safely. On my uber ride back, I couldn’t help but think that literally I needed to give myself the advice I gave my friends. To calm down, and stop overthinking and over-preparing. You’ll handle it when you need to. But literally, I was freaking out about my mom’s safety this whole trip.
I almost got a 3rd person point of view on how I freak out, and couldn’t help but think if that’s how god watches me freak out over everything. I saw how they were scared. Literally for no reason. That’s how I look scared too.
Anyways, came home, chilled with my mom. Fell asleep cause I was so tired. Unpacked, and then my best friend facetimed me to give me the rundown on how the bridal shower went. She told me the friend I didn’t like was talking shit about me. And honestly, as expected. But lol it doesn’t bother me, but I just see how sad and unfilled she is in her old life to be spreading negativity. No one happy and positive does that. I know she only envies me, which honestly sucks for her. Tbh I kind of internally laugh about it because haters are going to hate.
I also know in my heart that I gravitate people because they see how pure I am. So if people want her, they were never meant for me to begin with and I wish them the best. And I also know that anyone that’s not in my life is only a blessing in disguise for me.
Intuition - I need to stop overthinking. I literally made it home safe. All the freaking out was for nothing.
8/10 - It was a good day. Just peaceful.
Energy:
20% - staying calm while my friends were freaking out
20% - debriefing with my best friend
40% - reflecting
20% - sleeping
