8/28/25 - Is it the right time for portland?

Had a dream again with literally people taking advantage of me. But when I woke up, I saw a message from my coworker saying I was right and she got a “promotion” without a raise. Literally I was tripping for no reason. And tbh I can’t believe she accepted crumbs. Like who cares about a promotion at that point.

For breakfast I had my butter cookies and loaf cake with some coffee. Felt soooo bloated, so that I need to cut off on the carbs.

Worked a bit. I honestly have so much I need to get done at this point. But I’m trying not to stress.

Ate and watched tv with mom.

Went to go shower after, washed my hair since I’m done with my period, and did another interview. I definitely liked this girl, she seems pretty type A but she has boundaries too, which is so interesting to me now adays. Idk if I’m just pulling those people or if all Gen'-zs now adays have boundaries and standards.

Took a nap and then went on a walk cause I was so bloated. During my walk, I was thinking about my crashout yday and I need to trust that no one can take advantage of me more. I was on the right track but the fear of being taken advantage of drove me crazy.
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When I came back, I saw something about doing something you normally wouldn’t do helps you quantum jump, so I looked at the ticket prices for portland and somehow the way going there went super cheap.

Before buying, I went to the mandir and was just so thankful to be back with my mom cause literally last year I was praying for my mom’s life. And this year I was with my mom. I was a bit distracted with all the movement, so just wish tomorrow I can lock in a bit.

I offered my parking spot to a didi, and I know that was me overgiving but f it. If god is having this thought in me in the mandir there is no need for boundaries in the mandir.
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Came back home and literally booked my flight there and my hotel. I’m still nervous and I just hope god supports. Because I know portland has a purpose for me and I don’t want god to just cancel my flight or stop me if he doesn’t want me to go. I rather just not go from now. Because I no last year I wasn’t “ready” for portland. I just hope I’m ready for what portland has to offer me now and I get god’s blessings to go. Like a sign.

Because I keep thinking about it. For a whole year now. That’s the place I want to do my single solo trip. I just know there’s something waiting for me. Maybe it’s a version of myself that I’ll unlock. Not necessary a person.

Also sipped a little de soi while trip planning.

Intuition - Very spontaneous trip for next week. I’m still confused on if I should go or not cause technically I’m still forcing it but I just really want to go.

8/10 - Chill day but still not in full clarity

Energy:
25% - recovering from my crashout
25% - random trip planning
25% - working
25% - eating and bloated