8/15/25 - trying to regulate my nervous system

I could barely work today too. Just felt super distracted but was finally feeling a bit of myself just needed to keep that energy. It was at a point where it was coming and going. I would be fine as long as I didn’t remember it, but when I did, my anxiety would rise again. I ended up telling everyone to not talk about it and just leave me alone.

Dropped my aunt off to the train station and then went to target with my mom to return the house frames I was going to use to decorate my room. Lmao I love how I was just getting ready to do additional decorations when this happened. The universe knew I was getting to attached and trying to find comfort in the discomfort.

Came home and sat in the car to call housing deparement but I secretly hoped they wouldn’t answer. I don’t think I was ready, so decided I was going to create a statement to make sure my story was in line.

Ate and then took a nap.

At night, my cousin wasn’t going anywhere either and it was just him, me and my mom so we watched houseful 5 and tbh it was so funny. While I was just sitting there, I was really just like “this is family”. This feels like home. More home than I’ve ever felt in my perfect living room. And somehow that shook me a bit.

Intuition - Home looks different than I thought it would look.

7/10 - I know I’ll slowly recover. The main thing is I’ve done enough training to know exactly how to bounce back. Nervous system regulation at its core.

Energy:
20% - Trying to enjoy the now
80% - Trying to regulate my nervous system to detach from my trauma from the past couple of days.