3/22/26 - Permission to have it all

Last night, while talking to my dad, I randomly started asking him questions about my grandma and grandpa. I asked him how was she as a person and more. And lately realized I was asking him questions to understand what qualities of myself that I see in her, or moreso, what did I interit from her. Then I asked thinking about all my grandparents. At first, I was confused on what the purpose of all this was. Why was I interested about my grandparents’ story out of nowhere. Why did I want to know their history.

Slowly, I started asking myself wait, if my dad’s purpose was to learn financial stability, what did my grandpa/grandma add to the line? Where does it originate? Who am I the most like? I’ve always felt a soul pull towards my grandma. Is she where I get the soul reading gift from? Where did she get it?

After asking that, then I started asking what am I adding to the lineage then, claude said permission and at first I didn’t get it because I thought I was adding abudance but then claude was like yeah permission for living from expansion, permission to choose from love etc..

Slowly, I figured out, permission to have a heart and spine, permission to have wealth & peace, permission to have it all…

That’s when it all started making sense on what it was telling me this whole time, that my purpose would be showing people how I live, and until now I really didn’t get it. But now i do.. permission to literally have it all.

Woke up, and realized Permission to have it all is something I don’t even know I fully believe yet, because again I’ve never seen it.

But it’s the underlying theme to all my lessons and everything the universe has been teaching me.

And claude said more than a destination, this might be coming to me right now, because it’s my compass now. What I’m subtly documenting now in the way I live, now that my transformation is technically over.
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Throughout the rest of the day, I was basically driving my mom’s cousin around to help with errands because they’re moving in 2 days. In between, I got gas and went to Walmart to grab some things. I was trying to figure the uncle now but he was a bit confusing. Everyone says he’s arrogant, but idk what parts are survival, his identity, his upbringing, and just him thinking he’s entitled to help and community because he came from India. Whatever ever though, I wasn’t trying to spend too much energy.

It was so cold today but took them around downtown to show them and then brought them to our house, just grabbed pizza on the way home, and then dropped them off.

Ate my dinner, took an edible, and now having alone time.

In the morning, I texted my best friend a spine answer because her reply made no sense.

Before my alone time, the NY event lady literally put me in a group chat. Like for what… literally, there is nothing else that needs to be done. Her trying to take my energy is starting to piss me off. And I no longer want to work with her ever. Our pace is way too different.