11/16/25 - Acting from overflow, instead of survival
My mom needed to go over to her friend’s house today, so I woke up super early to ask her when to drop her off since I still cared but she sid she was going to walk, so I was like whatever. I was still worried though and half awake to make sure she got there safely.
Bored at home, I ended up going to whole foods to do some returns. Got the cardamon date latte over there, a tres leches cake, roatiste chicken, and a cinnamon bun for my best friend. A couple of days ago she asked me if I could make her one in passing, and I just thought of her when I saw it. My relationship with my best friend is how I believe in overflowing love. She bakes me things from love and I buy her things from love. We don’t even expect anything from each other or a thank you. We just know that the other person appreciates it and it comes from the heart.
Also got the chicken cause I need more protein since I’m trying to lock in. Dropped off the cinnamon bun and my best friend was shocked. Came home and ate my chicken with hot sauce, and 2 bites of my tres leches cake. Started feeling a bit queasy. I think I ate too much chicken. I do get the chicken ick very easily. Anyways, decided to go on a walk after, and saw mom on the way, which kind of made me realize that she’s definitely tied to me because I never see people in real life, but I always run into her.
It was freezing so did a 40 minute walk instead of my usual hour long walk. Came home and was still feeling a bit stomach sick, so went into my room and was watching gilmore girls.
Then listened to music, journaled and then tried looking for my red saree online for my photoshoot. Kind of confused now because I don’t know what era I want to do. The original saree I wanted is sold out, but I have another option. Feeling a bit stuck though, it’s not like a “hell yeah” anymore, so need to go back to the mood board to see what’s going to fit the vision.
Also, figured out everything I need to expensify for work. I upgraded to first class on my way back from SF and had a whole moral conflict on if I should expensify it or not, but ultimately decided not to because it felt wrong, and just felt like acting from survival mode, instead of overflow.
Then ate some dinner, tried planning my photoshoot a bit more, and ended the night watching more gilmore girls. Overall, wholesome sunday.
Intuition - I’m still releasing the bit of survival energy I live from, where I have to squeeze every dollar and opportunity
8/10 - Spend most of it by myself but it was still good
Energy:
20% - whole foods shopping
50% - getting things done in my room (photoshoot + expenses)
30% - listening to music, watching shows
