10/31/25 - Halloween
Woke up and again was dragging to get out of bed. I needed to wash my hair and shave but was way too lazy, so did the bare minimum for my makeup and just left.
I was upstairs catching up on my journals, and just ideating. I kind of just needed some alone time to actual be still. I feel like I’ve been all over the place the past two days and just talking way too much.
Anyways, we decided to go get lunch at this middle eastern salad place. I was casually talking to him on the way there. On the way back, I somehow was again telling my coworker that his gf might just be scared of receiving money and once she heals that, she’d be unstoppable. He asked me how I knew she had a spark and I told him I just did. Their was soul to her content. I kind of feel like I overstepped a bit. Like who cares, that’s her journey, but it like oozed out of me, like I really had to tell him.
For lunch, I decided I didn’t want to eat too much for the next two days cause I’ve just been eating away, so nibbled on my salad.
Since I didn’t have my 1-on-1 with the parent company boss yesterday, I needed to have one today so I told him just to get over it. Somehow I started speaking my truth and sharing my ideas. He agreed with it all. AND THEN lmao I told him that we needed raises and that’s why the company wasn’t growing because we were focusing on revenue. Lmao idk what came in me but it literally was oozing out even though I was really trying hard to just listen and be chill. Idk if I’m getting the raise but he got my point and agreed with it all.
He went for a meeting, and then he came back and we talked about it again. That’s kind of when I realized my boss was telling us stuff that this guy was telling him, and that’s when I lost my ultimate respect for him. And now I’m pretty sure what I told this CMO is going to go to my boss and my boss is going to do exactly that for the company. So in conclusion, everyone is doing what I proposed. Which is kind of crazy to me.. because why is no one using their brains. Althought I do thing the CMO reflects and agrees. The boss just blindly follows which is disgusting. Until now, I kind of had empathy for him, but even that’s going away because wtf at least lead the company correctly.
I went back downstairs and tried to chill out for a bit.
Randomly realized that I’ve been beating myself over nothing. I am not exposing my energy to everyone. It’s the three categories I talked about earlier: some people can hold my truth, some my emotions, and some both. And if it’s oozing out of me, clearly I’m not supposed to stay quiet, especially after it’s meant to change the way the company functions.
I haven’t seen my SF best friend yet, so she called me to ask for plans. Part of me just wanted to watch a Halloween movie with my other friend and then also go out later, but I didn’t shave or wash my hair or have a back-up costume. I was kind of confused on my plans. I told her I was going to go home and see.
Everyone left work a bit early. I got back to the hotel and literally just sat their for a couple of minutes, and then facetimed my SF bestie again. She told me she had mouse ears and all I needed to do was wear a gray shirt which I had, so didn’t need to shave and wash my hair. I told her I would go to my friend’s house to watch the movie then meet her at the club.
Went to my friend’s house. Her other friend was there too, so we watched a scary movie. The one where they make fun of scary movies. By the time, we were done with the movie, my other friends were also at the club, so me and her other friend walked to the club since it was only 10 minutes away.
I missed walking and it all looked so fun and lively on Halloween. Everyone with their costumes, the lights. It felt magical, and I was taking pictures. We got to the club and met up with my SF bestie, her sister, and her friend. All of us were dancing and some other friend came. I took an edible but it never hit.
We then ubered to the mariana but all the clubs had huge lines and the covers were too much, so lmao we literally just stood outside of the clubs and enjoyed the music while we were waiting for my friend’s boyfriend to come. We had a fun game going on where we’d rate guys. But no cute guys were in sight.
Out of nowhere we ran into my friend’s situationship. She was freaking out cause her boyfriend was coming in a couple of minutes. The craziest thing is we always run into him. And I believe that when someone’s purpose is done in your life, you don’t run into them but we always run into him, so it trips me up. Because I wonder what his purpose still is in my friend’s life.
Anyways, we decided to leave and walked a block away to call an uber. While we were walking, a guy came up to me to tell me I was beautiful and I got so creeped up by it, almost scared running away. My friends were laughing that I was literally looking for cute guys and the minute one comes up to me, I run away.
I ubered with them to their place. They insisted I sleep over, but I kind of wanted my own space. We made plans for brunch tomorrow morning, so called my uber and left.
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Overall, I’m also proud of myself for not being guilt tripped for plans and doing what I wanted to do.
9/10 - It was a great Halloween. I had fun
Intuition - Felt like a lot happened with me being unfiltered with the CMO but I have a feeling it’s going to serve me in a good way
Energy:
50% - talking to my boss
50% - Halloween activities with my friends
