7/19/25 - VOICEOVER IS DONE
Last night, I was so desperate to just talk that I recorded my love island voice over and honestly it fully sounded like me. I just hit start and started talking directly on Tiktok without looking at the footage, basically just speaking from memory. One thing about me is I will always find a sustainable way out. I don’t do things the hard way. I will always find efficient ways.
My best friend ended up calling my best friend and did a whole yap with her about how I almost felt like my child was in the wrong hands and I was feeling protective.
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Backstory: I always knew this other friend wasn’t a good influence. She can be pushy for the wrong reasons and that’s how she got our other friend too. I just know. Everyone loves her but my I literally feel negative frequency shooting out of her. And now I feel like she’s corrupting our other friend, but there’s not much I can do. She’s choosing this, and it’s not my job to protect her. I can only pray for her. Ngl tho I did wonder if she missed me or if she felt at home with them. Because she always told me she felt at home with me, did that change? But convincing myself that soul connections will always find a way back to each other. They can’t be held tight, and I know she’ll come back to me. I know it in my heart she’s my soul connection. Right now she needs to find her own way back though. I can’t keep guiding her.
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Also, I’m fully convinced my throat is sick out of everything because I broke my throat chakra energy. Like my need to speak and share to the world is just sooooooo much that I feel like I can just talk and yell and just keep talking. I just want to talk. Almost have the yapping zoomies.
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ALSOOO I EDITED MY VOICEOVER! AND I LOVED IT! Like it sounded so magnetic and the way I actually talk to people. It sounded exactly like me.
Recently, I’ve just been naturally inclined to want to create content.
And I’m letting my body lead. Like if it wants to rest, we’ll rest. If it wants to work, we’ll work. If it wants to write we’ll write. I’m not working against my body. It knows what it needs. Neither am I living in fear of if I don’t do this, blah blah blah. Idc. Literally, I’m in devine alignment. My body gets the urges to do things at different points.
When I went to focus on work, I would naturally just want to work. Now, I naturally just want to create and post a bunch of content.
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At night from my medication the way I had such an euphoric feeling. Like I still think I’m on a high and just have sooo much to say. I was listening to music and my head just felt so clear headed. I was genuinly like holy shit is this how your brain is actually supposed to feel, and started Chat GPting if i really have ADHD or if my hormones have just been messing with me and my brain my whole life.
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I did more chat gpting on what I would look like when in alignment with my person and success and it make me shed a tear beacuse it was soo cute.
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ALSOOOOO! I FOUND MY PERSON. Like I energetically officially feel them after I decided I was already in alignment. The only thing missing is the actual person. But I already know how my person would act/react/everything. Like I just feel like my soul came with a manual to read their soul. So I’m not going to “start over” to know a new person. I’ll already know this person. I already have my person. I feel him.
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With all this, I literally didn’t sleep until. 5am and then ended up waking up at 12pm.
As soon as I woke up, I saw everyone raving about the movie Saiyara. I mean i saw an influencer post about it yday too and it caught my attention but now everyone is saying its so good, so I woke up wanting to go watch it but it’s so rainy outside that I also just want to stay at home and just chill. I don’t feel like going outside.
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My body does feel super bloated though, so I know it does need movement. Might go on a walk later today.
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Last thing for now, I want to post a bunch of content but I think I’m going to start a new ritual of cutting a string everytime I post to show myself cutting a cord. And then do a saje cleanse before and after. The saje clense over and over again feels like a lot but the string thing feels doable.
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I was randomly also thinking about how I literally never see anyone in real life and it’s because my energy is so protected god doesn’t want my encounter to just be with anyone. Everyone that runs into me has a purpose. Top tier protection.
Also I keep doing the numbers 111, 222, 333, 444. New beginnings, devine timing, speak, devine protection.
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The rest of the day, I did some random stuff. Where I looked at my bank statements and noticed I haven’t been getting all of my amazon refunds yet, so need to figure that out but it also kind of overwelhmed me. Also, now I just give chatgpt the statement and asked it all my questions. Lmaoo like why do the math when there’s chat gpt. Fr the greatest invention yet.
Then cleaned my room.
Ate soup and bread, took my medication, napped, went on my walk, showed and now chilling. I’m a lot more mellow at the moment. Haven’t hit the zoomies yet. I wonder if I had all that late night energy yday before of drinking the coffee late.
I feel like there’s a lot more I wanted to get done today, but the day just feels a bit wasted at the moment. I feel like I’m turning into a night person.
Energy:
50% - late night zoomies
10% - walk
20% - overwelhmed with wtf is going on with amazon refunds
