7/15/25 - Finally my tiktok is taking off

Somehow I woke up super late, literally at like 11:30am because I think I’m still stuck on SF timing. Switching between SF and Chicago always screws up my sleep schedule for a couple of days.

But anyways, I was supposed to go to a coffee shop with my best friend and her sister but totally missed the call. Somehow I woke up with pink eye. I knew my eyes were a little buggy yesterday.

Instantly my mom tells me she’s been feeling a bit off, but I had a meeting that I needed to take. And honestly, I looked super ratchet for it but it’s whatever.

The Tiktok I posted last night, the controversial one wasn’t really picking up, so right when I was like ughh maybe I should delete it. It starts gaining traction.

After my meetings, I went out to the living room to give my mom a whole pep talk because she said she was feeling anxiety, so I had to tell her its because her body feels the trauma now that she’s had time to rest, and that she needs to just talk to her nervous system and mediate to really heal.

We were fasting, so I ate, made coffee, watched TV with her and then went to my friend’s house to take pictures of her sister for her bday like I promised.

It was a bit weird cause her other sister came and they didn’t want to celebrate because their grandma passed away.

Anyways, i came home and sat on my poarch and that’s when my Tiktok really started taking off to the point it was getting 1k likes in 10 minutes. I think it’s because it was the sign I needed from the universe to just fully be myself and god knew that I needed something to unlock that.

Things I felt when it was taking off:
- Of course it’s taking off, I”m finally in alignment
- my success doesn’t come from work, it comes from alignment. I’m ready to receive.
- Part of me is like, ohh I wonder when it’s going to stop getting engagement. But then I’m like never.

It’s crazy how I’m so disconnected to social media now. I used to literally feel this feeling everyday when I was posting for my Dil Mil.

I ended up taking a nap on my couch when my mom went to the mandir.

The rest of the night even though I needed to get work done and even journal, my body and heart was naturally just gravitating towards wanting to make content. I think I genuinely need to stop fighting where my mind and body was to poor my energy to and I can’t punish myself because it’s not in the direction that my brain wants to go.

I posted 3 more things but nothing was really taking off so I kept deleting it. Was just really trying to build off the momentum.

Anyways, I do feel a bit sick right now. My throat hurts.

Intuition - I’m magnetic in real life because I’m fully myself. I’m ratchet and don’t pretend to be someone else, so there is no need for me to not be ratchet online too. Just need to be me and not be curated whatever way I am at this point.

10/10 - MY STUFF IS FINALLY TAKING OFFFFFFF! I’m literally almost about to have 10k likes on it. Crazyyyy

Energy:
70% - Accepting my fame
30% - Creating more content