7/1 - Choosing myself
I’ve just been feeling so sleepy, and it’s just making me more angry at myself because I just have a backlog of so much stuff I need to do. I’m behind on my journals, my room is a mess, I need to create content, need to get some work things done, and some personal things.
The list is just never ending and I just feel more and more overwelhmed. My brain feels overloaded.
I literally woke up so late, took some meetings, worked for a bit, ate, napped, went on my 10k walk, went to my best friend’s house to print things for my tax stuff and yeah that’s about it. Now I’m sleepy again. I just don’t have energy.
1. I still woke up confused about the whole guy friend situation, but I think I’m just lonely. I do not have real feelings for him. He is not my person. And I need to set myself straight. I will not prioritize temporary feelings over my gut.
2. My tax guy called and he told me what I needed to mail. So that’s why I went to my best friend’s house to get things printed. I haven’t called the IRS but something tells me I should just do it first, instead of blindly listening to him, so I might call the IRS tomorrow.
3. I called my guy friend during the walk and literally it cleared up my illusion on why he could never be my person. I initally thought I needed to learn how to be vulnerable with him but no. He doesn’t deserve that. The right guy will give me a safe space to be heard. My reactions are not wrong. There’s a reason why my body doesn’t feel comfortable with this guy. He’s not in alignment. So I just need to drop him. Idk what god is teaching me with him in my life but yeah. Idk if he’s the blocker for my person.
Regardless, I don’t want the drama and I choose my boundaries and self-respect.
Intuition - I’m at least proud of myself for going on my nature walk. Something tells me the guy friend is a blocker and I need to find a way to cut him off.
6/10 - I got this. I just need to tackle things one thing at a time.
Energy:
80% - drained and overwelhmed but trying to stay chill
20% - trying to push through
