9/18/25 - It really will be easy now
Last night, I started crying because I started visualizing meeting my person and now I’m manifesting it super hard.
Woke up, and went to the gym because now I have a goal in mind to look for the LA event. Last night, I searched up a workout routine so just followed it.
At the gym, it felt a bit easy and quick but I’m taking it slow for now I just need to make it to the gym. If it’s easy, it’s okay maybe it was never meant to be that hard. Did the sets and then did a 1-minute plank and stretched a bit.
I had a meeting with the new girl at 12pm, so needed to be home quickly but had some time in between so went to the bank.
Came back exactly on time and had my call with the girl. It went super smoothly and she said she would be ready to start on October 1. Told my boss and he was ready to send the letter out too.
Had my next call with the new guy from my team and tbh he was drowning in anxiety. I think he doesn’t think he can do the job or believes he’s meant to be here. The solution isn’t lack of skills, literally it’s just confidence. Once he owns it, all his problems will go away. But decided I wasn’t going to overextend myself. I’ve offered enough help. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to help himself.
Which again made me think literally all I need for my overflow life and even the LA event is confidence. I need to believe I’m meant to be there. Because if I don’t believe it, it doesn’t matter how successful I am I’ll always feel awkward being in big rooms.
Then messaged the LA event person and lol I actually gave her 1k more without her asking. Felt like I was giving from overflow and she agreed. It was that easy. Literally, it’s never been that easy for while coming to terms on an event. Normally, I’m like negotiating for my life.
But being in overflow is believing everything actually is supposed to be easy. That’s how life is supposed to be. Up until now, it was only hard because it was a training ground not cause the universe hated me.
Took a shower, used a different shampoo and conditioner this time. I’m like seriously on a hunt for new shower products. Was so exhausted, so did a 5 minute nap and visualized my aura to stay strong for dance practice today.
I’m practicing now getting drained. Picked up my best friend and we barely talked but I didn’t feel like keeping the convo, it was too draining. Picked up bubble tea before going in because I was sooo tired.
At dance practice I was great and myself, but by the last 20 minutes, I could sense the vibes shifting. Idk if it was because of something I said or if she was just getting drained and tired, so I decided to head out.
On the way back, I could tell it was my best friend that was draining me, so I just kept imaging an aura and tried staying strong. As soon as she left, I felt like the negativity was lifted and I could breathe again. But I wasn’t drained to the point like I was after last practice or the hospital, so I think I’m getting better at this.
Came home ate some yogurt and then was craving a grilled cheese so made that and then decided to watch a movie on hulu.
I have sooo much work to do, but I’m so drained. I just need to wake up super early one day and get it all done.
I also think I give from overflow too now. Like I wasn’t trying to penny pitch the new girl or the event girl. I gave them a little more than they deserve.
9/10 - I feel happy knowing things are supposed to be easy and it doesn’t feel wrong. Was still a bit drained after practice but I’m getting better.
Intuition - Life in overflow is exactly where I’m supposed to be. I just need to keep up the confidence.
Energy:
20% - gym
20% - working
20% - dance practice
40% - trying not to get drained
