9/17/25 - Working from overflow, I’m the magnet
I woke up and saw another sponsorship opportunity emailed to me for Diwali with A-list celebrities in LA.
So my question was what’s the overflow mentally I should use for work? Right now, I feel like I’m a bit guarded with how much energy I give to work because I don’t want to get sucked in and forget about my own dreams. But the reality is I like what I do for work and I have complete freedom. So I’m not miserable. Which is why I still care even if I’m not getting a raise. But I do what I can, I don’t overwork myself anymore. I take the rest I need too. But right now there are all these sponsorship opportunities coming for dil mil to sponsor events. And since I’m in charge I get to pick and choose and also go to the event. But part of me is like I don’t want my personal name attached to big events anymore. I don’t want to be known for dil mil. Also though that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t just sponsor events, feels like a disservice to my work. Especially if the sponsorship opportunities and events are being thrown at me. What’s the mentally I should go in with work? These events? I need a perspective where I’m not giving too much but clearly I still care about the work and I’m still here and I don’t think it’s my time to leave yet. But at the same time I’m not abandoning my dreams ever again.
Chat gpt said: Practice being in the rooms and really show up like the CEO or Director. I’m not a steward anymore. I will no longer work the booths or stay in the corner. I will get someone else to do that. Similar to why I’m hiring an assistant. I will no longer do the dirty work. I am me first. And my title just happens to be one of the things I do.
I think until now, I was still doing the dirty work myself but with boundaries, which explains the anchoring stage. Overflow is now still doing the things I want to do but not the dirty work and really showing up as someone with high standing.
And I feel better about that.
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Anyways, did some work, ate and took a nap. Was feeling soooo drained waking up from my nap like I almost just wanted to stay asleep but saw the room shining in my room and felt a bit more alive.
Went on my walk without my headphones and told myself I wasn’t going to look at my phone. Did only once and for the most part walked in peace.
During my walk, I started feeling a bit of imposter syndrome for the event. Like being with A-list celebrities possibly by myself seems like a night mare for my social anxiety, but that’s the old me talking the one that tried staying small and invisible. Plus, if it’s coming my way, it’s already mine - just like the snake from the dream. I just need to say “let’s do this” because I can. And this is just the start. It’s happening sooner than I thought it would. I always thought I would be famous with my content and then be invited to the rooms. By then people would know me from my content, but I guess the time is now. And I need to go in with the same energy as I would if I were a famous content creator that people already knew.
I guess I’m doing this and I have a month to prepare my energy. A glimmer of me can’t help but think what if my person is in that room?
The universe did tell me my blessings will be coming in fast in October and nows the time. I wanted to jump timelines so badly, well guess what now I’m jumping timelines.
I know what I want to wear too. A red indian corset skirt set. That’s my vision.
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Came home and ate yogurt and now working.
Intuition - I belong in big rooms but I need to go in as future me, not the old me living in scarcity. My fear is coming from old me.
7/10 - Felt like another rest day but still need to get a lot of work done.
Energy:
34% - gain confidence for big rooms
33% - freaking out about big rooms
33% - trying not to be drained and practice energetic wombing
