9/15/25 - The gold aura is within me like the sun
Today I feel like I had a dream that gave me the clarity that I needed, and honestly feels so obvious but it’s one of those things where you don’t get it until you’re supposed to get it.
The dream was a snake was running towards me and I had just saw my coworker pick it up and tame it. She was supposed to do it but this time it was coming at me, and in that moment I realized, “if it’s coming at me, it means I can already handle it” and then just took a deep breath and said “Let’s do this. I can do this” and did it. And I felt soooo proud of myself.
1. If it’s coming at me, I can already handle it.
2. Taking a deep breath
3. Saying “Let’s do this. I can do it”
Literally, this felt so revolutionary because this time I internally believed it. And the deep breath and affirmation felt like it was the transition I needed to eliminate the fear and also reaffirm if it’s coming at me that means god is telling me I can handle it.
I know this was a dream, but it gave me the visual and feeling I needed. And then I reflected it with everything else in my life and I always know I can handle anything that comes my way. I’ve done it time and time again. The impossible.
I felt so strong and happy waking up.
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And then I realized the visual I’ve been thinking of with the gold aura around me is flawed. Because without the gold aura, I’m nothing. And that’s what kept me tied to external safety. The gold aura was external.
But then it just hit me that the aura needs to be within me and excute out of me to even form a bigger gold aura outside of me so big that it’s beyond the world. Exactly like the sun. The crazy part is that I look at the sun everyday too and it never hit me.
And then all of a sudden my journal that I was doing at the beach made sense to me too. The prompt was “how do people view you” and I said a girl that has so much power within her and just dominant and isn’t being used. Like she doesn’t even know how powerful she is.”
That’s my inner energy! Even I knew that there’s something in me that I’m not using to its full potential! My inner aura!
It’s crazy how the universe unlocks one thing at a time. But it truely feels like a new day.
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Got dressed and then went to try this new coffee shop called Levant bakery on our way we needed to give food to homeless people so did that for a bit. I got a Tirimusu latte and tbh it was mid. I just feel like the coffee tastes burnt everywhere. Like I like my at home coffee way better at this point.
Came home and had my meeting and my boss told me he was about to be a dad in a week! And tbh I’m actually really happy for him. No matter what I feel for him as a boss. I know he’s going to be a great dad, and I hope he’s a girl dad because girls need a dad like him. I still remember the day I told him I was sad and it was just him and I at work. We literally got Chicken tenders and watched grown ups at work.
Earlier today I also found out my high school best friend’s dad passed away, and I knew how much she loved him. He was also always drop me home too after school projects and was so nice.
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After my work call, I also randomly had a call with someone that emailed me to do an intro call. And idk what it was but our energy matched and I feel like she just got it. She literally was like “you deserve someone that cares about the brand like you do” and that was so cute because she’s right. I really do.
After that - ate lunch with my mom, watched shows with her and went on my walk.
Saw the dog I always see on my walk and had a whole convo with his owner for the first time. He started telling me about his love life. The interesting thing is I feel like white people are starting to feel comfortable enough to open up to me, which I wonder where this is coming from. Do they feel like my frequency matches theirs? Because this definitely didn’t happen before. Anyways, told him I was looking for a dog and gave the dog “rocket” treats.
Came home and then went to my yin yoga class. During yoga, I realized that everyone else’s energy was still affecting me a little. Like my boss’, my high school friends, the random girl I talked to, the dog owner. I was thinking about them. And I still felt their energy, so I kept trying to recenter myself.
Randomly, it also hit me that I should make a tiktok on me putting an engagement ring on myself. It feels like I should start right where everything started for me. The engagement ring.
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Came home and ate dinner and watched TV with mom.
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I’m also super ready to fire my social media person, so my boss had a call with another girl today, and if that doesn’t work, I’m thinking about hiring this random girl part time. But I refuse to put myself at any disadvantage. I will hire anyone to help, but I won’t overextend myself. Also I finally feel like it’s over for the social media girl. Here time is done. It’s also her birthday in a couple of days, so I’m guessing its her Saturn return.
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On the other note, I also feel like everyone and their moms are having pregnancy announcements today. Like I literally heard or saw at least 4 people, which is cute. and lmaooooo I want a prego announcement for the vibes but not really. I don’t even have a guy announcement. 😂 Engagements are overrated at this point, though. We’ve moved on to baby announcements.
Intuition - I feel like I made huge breakthrough today. And I feel like the fear just dissolved for now. It feels like a new chapter.
Things I still need to learn during anchoring:
- How to keep my energy safe. Other people’s energy still drains me.
- I need to discount from food and get back into the health grind
- Receive without guilt
- Perfect the art of nothing being able to break my internal world
9/10 - I felt at peace today.
Energy:
20% - happy at my breakthrough
20% - happy for my boss
20% - had a great convo with the random girl
20% - had a great time with dog guy
20% - felt like I was making alignment breakthroughs with content too
