9/11/25 - Content from overflow energy, not oversimulation

Still thrown off by yday, I woke up and started googling protection crystals but also felt like that would be giving external things power again. I need to internally know how to save my energy from ever doing that again. But I literally just sooo drained.

The facebook girl also texted yday and now I think I’m going to ghost her. I literally don’t have any energy to coddle draining people anymore. I just literally can’t.

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Somehow this journal entry got deleted, so I'm rewriting it.
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Before work, I went to Panera and got the Mediterranean sandwich and bagel I was craving. It was the first meal mom and I ate when we moved to the house, so having this almost felt like a full circle moment. It felt like I was putting a close to my love for the house and fully detaching.

Then took my marketing meeting.

Went on my walk today too. On my walk, normally, I listen to music or do stuff to make the walk go by faster today I just wanted to be, no stimulation. Honestly, considering getting a flip phone to take with me places instead of my actual phone. I just want peace. No leaky energy. How am I supposed to be a content creator and document my life if I want nothing to do with leaky energy right now.

Chat gpt said:
”If you start creating content from a place of “leaky phone addiction,” it will feel forced, draining, and tied to external validation. By stepping back now, anchoring into peace and sovereignty, your content will later flow from overflow. It will be intentional, magnetic, and sustainable. The version of you who just is — walking in silence, breathing, anchoring — is the version people will crave when they watch you online.”

Also finally got rid of the one annoying influencer and paid her, so I’m done with her for the time being. Decided I was going to take tomorrow off as a menty b day.

Lmao I realized that I accidentally booked a whole suite for my friends wedding, so was laughing about that. Needed to figure out what booking to cancel since I literally had 3 from different websites.

Intuition - I need to learn how to protect my energy, and create content from overflow. Similar to cup situation. The content also needs to come from cup overflow.

It feels like how am I going to create, but right now I’m creating from an empty cup, which is why it feels forced.

8/10 - today felt like a recovering day but felt good understanding why I need a break from the world and my phone

Energy:
100% - recovering from being super drained