9/6/25 - Soul contracts and the reason to internally anchor
I woke up with an intense need to just figure out my daily practices of staying aligned. Basically, living the life of my highest self now that I need to create inner stability. I felt the need to be more intentional and just elimate outside noise.
I also want to start doing energy cleanses. It’s crazy how I used to see people on IG doing this and I thought it was extra, but clearly I do yin yoga and know that emotions do more through the body. Even energy. I just need to do it the right way.
Morning:
Wake up and go straight outside and touch the sun then bathroom
do any energy cleanse
Sit and visualize aura, take medicine
Write down intention
Look at phone
Shower & get dressed
make coffee & eat
Day
Walk or gym or both
Night:
Saje cleanse
Shower or wash face
brush teeth
Body oil & massage stomach
yin yoga & energy cleanse
Journal
put oil on face
I was going to go shower and randomly just hit me that everything is soul level, and my dad’s soul agreed to be separate from me for me to complete my learnings. Sure on a human level, it’s like his own karma and mistakes and stuff. But on a soul level, it was almost a sacrifice. His soul accepted being away from his family and living in solitude for him to also learn things but also for his love to break lineage trauma and for me. And tbh that just made me cry and made me remember that everything is soul level. Suddenly, all my anger for everyone just left my body. It’s like all the human level behavior didn’t matter.
Sometimes, I’m like all this sounds soooo deep. But it all makes sense to me.
Mom came home and I had to tell her all this too. I also had to tell her she needs to learn how to trust her values and stop proving herself to people. She has anxiety that people are going to think wrong about her and so she overworks herself to prove to people. I also feel it, she’s scared that people tell her how’d you stop working and just depend on your daughter. It’s because she internally needs to prove shes not a burden. And I told her the richer you get, the more people talk shit about you. You need to learn to ignore the chaos.
I’m also teaching her and myself to release the fear.
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Went to whole foods and aldi. Needed to return some things, also got new cheese from whole foods, so I’m excited to add it into food. Needed to get small water bottles from aldi but they didn’t have it. Came home dropped everything and went to ganpati.
Today was the last day of Ganpati. This is probably my fav time of the year, so going to miss going to the mandir every night. I kind of liked it as a ritual. It also makes me feel so deeply connected to my culture and religion.
While I was praying, I had this internal belief that it was time for my abundance chapter. So deep similar to exactly what I felt when I start this journal, I just knew it was my becoming and healing chapter. And now I just know it’s my abundance chapter.
It was super cold and I started sneezing, so I came back home but lol was craving ice cream, so ate some cookies and cream.
While I was eating ice cream, I realized I really needed to create an internal structure for sanity. September is like fully internally regulating my body so no matter what happens I’m protecting my own energy. And October feels like expansion that now protecting my body through rituals is so normal for me that expansion isn’t crazy because now my internal world will never change since it doesn’t depend on the external world anymore. If it goes straight to expansion right now and if everything in my life changes I won’t have any form of internal anchoring and I’ll be lost and sad because nothing will feel familar.
The new friend texted earlier today to hang out and tbh I just didn’t answer her. I’ll answer tomorrow. I really don’t want to hang out with her. She was so draining.
Mom came soon after and then went into my room to journal. Also did some of my night routine, and even lit a candle.
Took an edible and tried to amazon shop.
Intuition - This whole soul level contract feels like insane enlightment, along with the concept of anchoring.
9/10 - Chill day and felt like I got a lot of clarity
Energy:
25% - releasing the rest of whatever I needed to release
25% - finding clarity
50% - trying to upgrade my life with routine and lifecycle
