9/5/25 - The release

I literally spent most of my day in bed. It felt like a release/stuck day. I shed some tears yesterday and even today, and it felt like my body was sooo exhausted and was doing a huge release. I was just on my phone and couldn’t even get up. Canceled my meetings too.

Somehow had the energy to make eggs for lunch but then came back into my room and took a nap.

At around 6pm, I decided I was going to on a walk but I popped my side body pimple and instantly felt dizzy. I ended up drinking an electrolyte and then my best friend texted me to ask if I wanted to go on a walk with her.

I waited and ended up going with her. I was so hyper that I ended up just being honest with her that I didn’t want to have a “proper” convo. I wanted to have an unfiltered convo.

We talked about a lot but then she brought up the friend group again. And I think she’s still not over it because she thinks I’m not talking to them because I have ego. I had to explain to her that her and I fight all the time and have the largest egos. But we still always come back together. And I’m not talking to them because they don’t align with future me. I’ve energetically cut myself but I’ll still physically always be there if anyone needs me. I think she also has a hard time grasping that the way to avoid burn out if giving from overflow, not obligation. I still she also doesn’t understand how I’m so different with different people.

We ended up going on the swings at the park, and it just felt so freeing. The conversation wasn’t draining; it felt like my cup was filled.

I came home, showed, and then went to the mandir. I was just thankful while praying and welcoming my chapter of abundance.

Came home and finished life with the walter boys.

Instition - I’m crying out the fear of my ancestors and releasing everything

5/10 - Felt like a huge release

Energy:

75% - sleeping, crying out everything, stuck in bed
25% - energized by my best friend