9/4/25 - Trusting my inner compass
I slept super late because I drank a celicus so late and stayed up watching netflix.
A couple of days ago, I was really confused on why I was feeling calm throughout the chaos and at first I thought it was forshadowing trauma, but it was my inner child freaking out.
But I feel like I have clarity now. The calmness is there to zone out the noise and give myself room to listen to what my inner compass has to say.
It’s crazy how I’ve actually listened to what my heart said when it came to work/school. That’s the whole reason why I went to North Park and did marketing or moved to SF. I listened to my heart and it never did me dirty. Which was my inner compass.
But when it comes to my safety, the fear is louder than my inner compass. Even though just a couple of days ago, I told someone to not listen to the noise and listen to your heart. For me it’s my safety, for others it’s their career.
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Before work and my meetings started, I decided to go to Del Sur and get coffee. I was debating if I was going to get my best friend it or not since it was her bday because again I didn’t want to overgive, but I don’t think I’m overgiving. It’s coming from a place of overflow, not overextending myself.
On my way there, I randomly felt like calling my dad, so I called him and told him everything about his aunt and uncle visiting. It was a good convo and I could tell he needed a convo with me. I could tell it left him feeling hopeful.
Dropped off the coffee at my best friend’s place and she was happy. Said happy bday to her too.
Came home and was already late to my meetings. But the coffee hit and was good. Had them, wasn’t really stressed. Had a meeting with my boss and we decided we were going to let the social media manager go.
Ate and watched TV with mom.
Tried taking a nap but couldn’t sleep, so decided to go on a walk. Before going, I bickered with my mom cause she said something about sketchers and it pissed me off because she’s not taking care of her and is just letting go. That was always the difference between my mom and dad. My dad played the part.
Anyways went on my walk and some guy came up to me. Which was crazy because just yesterday, I was wondering why no one comes up to me.
Came home, and went to yoga. On the way there, the facebook girl texted. I need to figure out how to curve her but going to not give it too much attention. I need to figure out how to curve without lying. Like I’m genuinely just busy and can’t hang out with her.
While doing yoga I was just doing things and following instructions. It finally hit me what “expansion means” it means I can finally breathe. I have been feeling suffocated in a couple of things and now I can expand.
I also left feeling insanely calm.
No fear, nothing. Just calm. Which literally reaffirms that I need to do yin yoga more often, it literally makes me feel so grounded and finds peace when I didn’t even know I needed it. I need to add it as a part of my routine.
Came home and parked and then went to the mandir. At the mandir, I was soooo chill that the owner gave me the aarti. Felt like a sign of blessings coming to me.
Mom and I came home and I ate a bit, and now journaling. Drinking my ashwaghana drink too.
9/10 - Felt like a calm rest day
Intuition - Everything I want is already mine.
Energy:
100% - restoring my energy and chilling
