8/19 - The larger purpose
Today’s reflections are a bit different. I can’t help but ponder on the fact that everyone is just a pawn of the universe if you think about it. I’ve always gotten what I’ve asked for and it’s always left me with some sort of lesson. Like the way it’s almost like a huge master plan, where I asked God to give me someone that was patient and that’s what reeled me in because I was getting what I prayed for, but that same person gave me anxiety and caused me to develop an anxious attachment. It was my Karma for giving my ex anxiety.
And honestly this brings me peace for three reasons.
1. Everyone gets their Karma. So everything bad has happened to me will come bite them in the ass. It won’t go unnoticed and I know this because everything bad that I’ve done has bit me in the ass too. And this on its own gives me closure. I don’t need them to come back to me and say sorry. The universe will take care of them.
2. I feel a sense of all my Karma coming to an end and me being super close to being with my person. It feels as if all the lessons I’ve learned have finally wrapped up.
3. My ex will not come back. None of them. Because the lessons that I was supposed to teach them have been taught and the lessons that they needed to teach me have also been taught. It doesn’t feel like unfinished business, it feels like that chapter of my life is over. This is supported by the fact that I’ve literally never ran into my exes after we’ve broken up. This supports that their purpose in my life is over. And this gives me closure to move on peacefully. This also makes me feel better knowing there is nothing I could have done better or differently. It was going to happen no matter what.
And that goes back to feeling peace in being a pawn. Almost like the saying everything is written in the stars. Whatever you do or don’t do is meant to happen.
SOOOOO… literally continue to do what you need to do. If you need to block someone to feel peace, do it. Literally, if they are meant to stay in your life, the universe will make it happen, don’t worry. You don’t need to worry, control or chase anything.
