9/18 - Be careful what you ask for

Update - I ended my hoeship. Lol I am not for the chasing life. Been there, done that. Neither do I feel a need to keep a useless convo going.

On the other note - I’ve always gotten what I’ve asked for, but it’s came with some downsides to it.

Wanted someone peaceful - check

Wanted someone calm - check

Wanted to break up with J - check

Wanted to move back - check
Wanted to grow and be more emotionally regulated - check

So now I’m like okay what am I really asking god for? and are there any ifs and buts to this. Like it is going to lead to me to a path of sadness? Am I ready for it?

Point is - Be really careful what you ask for and if it gets delivered with some challenges, you know why.

7/10 - Still working with my mom’s new lifestyle