9/16 - feeling scared

I was talking to my laser girl and we were talking about how men force commitment on you to close off your options and then take their time to decide if they want you or not as their wife. But what about women getting the time to choose. Once they’re in a relationship, it’s like they don’t have a choice and sure they can leave but women usually try to make it work.

So then I’m like okay I need to take my time in getting to know my next person, but out of nowhere started having this fear of situationships. I think the beauty of my relationships so far were that it just felt like a lot of love but I know it’s also love bombing.

So overall, just scared on how I even want to approach dating moving forward where it’s just all building walls.

7/10 because dating sounds like a nightmare right now.