8/21 - Done overthinking

Today feels like a 8/10 type of day. I woke up and was just so fed up about thinking about him and what went wrong over over again. I decided I was done (for today, at least. Hopefully, for the rest of time too).

A little part in me kept hoping that one day he would decide to reach back out. But then I read a horoscope post today about what Geminis and taurus’ want in their person, and that kind of awakened me a bit. What he wants could never be me and what I want can never be him. We just aren’t compatible. 

And then I was reading a book that said they were on and off for 3 years, but she just knew they weren’t meant for each other. They were just too attached. 

The attachment is slowly fading, so I don’t need to re-attach myself.

And suddenly, now I’m like I’m already working through the attachment. What’s the point of wanting him to reach out to get reattached if not harder when I actually know we’ll never be each other’s person. It’s just the memories that still haunt right now but it’ll be worse next time around.

So suddenly, I don’t want him to reach out anymore. 

I just want to stop thinking about the good memories. I need to accept it as the past and move on. I can’t miss it. 

To tackle the missing part - I decided to try a couple of new things today. Every time I miss him, I start to EFT tap and say “no, whatever happened I know it was the right decision” and then I quickly pivot to thinking about what a powerful me can look like.

I have a whole life ahead of me that’s ready to live and I’m soo excited for it. I know I’m lucky, and I know the world is working for me so the best things are yet to come. I just need to keep working through and being patient.