5/18 - Black ants

Woke up today and made my plans for tomorrow. Lolol have a whole google calendar on what I’m going to do, and was just chilling in bed for a bit, despite waking up early.

When I went to the living room, it was a whole disaster. My mom was by the window and there were a whole black ant infestation. They were everywhere, so we were doing damage control. Quickly made a whole vinegar solution and everything. Literally put my romba outside too. They just kept coming, and we couldn’t figure out the reason.

I literally started googling why this could be happening too. Until now I was like okay it’s a sign to post my content, but I have been posting my content. So I don’t understand why these ants are randomly showing up now. Like they’re no longer in my room, now they’re in the living room. So confused.

Anyways to destress, I decided to do my walk at the beach again and got a blueberry matcha. It was okay… and at one point, it was sooo cold, so I was just sitting in the car for a bit before going on my walk.

But made it happen, and enjoyed it. I needed to pull myself back in the fact that this was basically the last day I was 26.

After my walk I went to trader joes to get some flowers and tofu, but before going in, I couldn’t help but wonder why it was so necessary for me to cut on my weak energy cords. Like why does it need to be so dramatic, so did some chat gpting with that and it said my energy is important, so I’m just going to take it at that.

After trader joes, I was literally starving and sooo tired. But came home and ate and mom wanted to go to the krishna mandir so we went there. Before walking in I saw a homeless person digging through the garbage for food and it made my heart so sad. I wanted to bring him food, so after the mandir, I brought him prasad. Idk if it was the same one, but I hope he eats the food.

Came home, and again saw the ants, so we put my plants outside too. Hopefully it just stops. Even did a whole white saje clense.

Picked some pictures for tomorrow, and now in bed watching some hulu. Going to do some journaling because today is one of the most powerful days for manifesting. But overall I’m so exhausted and drained. Too tired to even assemble the flowers.

I’m a little scared for tomorrow because I don’t know what to expect, but I’m ready.

Intuiton - I feel a shift coming in my life, a little nervous but I know I’m ready

8/10 - very drained but happy


Energy:
50% - Ants + cleaning
30% - walking + trader joes.
20% - mandir + journaling