5/8 - Finding my sauce by just practicing
I ended up sleeping at 3am yesterday, and I was so exhausted that I literally knocked out as soon as I closed my eyes. The good news is that I did end up finally get the work done, I locked in and just got it done, and it literally only took me 30 minutes, but I’ve been dreading and procrastinating for a week.
That being said, I ended up waking up late again, and it was already 11am to the point where I had to get straight working. I’m honestly starting to get really annoyed of this, especially since it’s too cold to walk outside right now, so I just feel like I’m stuck at home all day. It’s starting to get suffocating. Literally the crazy part is that this only been my routine for a week, but I hate it.
I feel like I need a life/routine BEFORE and AFTER work. I hate everything revolving around work. But since I got the hard thing out of the way last night, I’m determined to lock in and get everything else out of the way too, so I can go to sleep early today and then restart tomorrow.
That being said, literally just locked in and got work done/meetings and more. After lunch, I took a nap, and then woke up to clean quickly cause my mom’s friend was coming. Midday I decided I wanted to go on a walk so I went, and it was literally so cold that I came back in 20 minutes, but that 20 minutes was everything. I desperately just wanted to be outside of the house.
I drove to Khol’s but forgot my license so ended up driving back, but came home and got 11k steps in. So we’re at a balance of 3k to still make up now.
My video from yesterday started getting a bit of hate, but I know I just need to stay strong and keep going. This is going to happen if I’m going to speak my voice. I’m still although figuring out my content style. I watched a video today and she was like anyone can make the same content but they don’t got the sauce you do. And honestly I just need to find my sauce.
And then I saw something about people are worried about content performing when they’re not even consistent. It’s like worrying about how much you can bench without going to the gym.
And then another video of how there were 2 studies done, 1 group was asked to take the perfect picture and another group was just asked to take pictures. The second group got better over time just because of practice.
And tbh… I really have been getting better too. If you think about it I did start making content in Jan and now just continuing again. And I really have seen a huge difference just from that, so I really just need to keep going and I’m sure I’ll figure it out.
Overall, my fyp really was for me today and just gave me everything I needed to hear.
After getting my steps in, worked some more, and now just trying to reset for tomorrow, because geanunily my day is 10x better when my routine is solid. Also going to try keeping my phone at my desk. Although i just feel like it gives me more anxiety not having it next to me.
Still on my artificial sugar cut too. And there’s stuff going on the news about the India and Pakistan war, so that feels a bit scary too.
Intuition - I really just need to keep going. This period is hard but literally I don’t have another option. At this point, I’m training my employee to take my place too.
5/10 - Not happy with the routine but happy I got work done
Energy:
80% - work
10% - trying to walk
10% - cranky about my routine
