5/3 - Friendships need to be treated like boyfriends

I was happy it was a Saturday and I still had a whole weekend to go through. Initially, I wanted to go to a workout class but classes are very limited on saturdays. So instead, I decided to do a whole cleaning spree of my shoe closet. It’s been on my mind, so put some headphones on and just got to it. But then my mom came, and it got annoying. I have realized that I just don’t like doing things when she’s there. I’ve just been needing my space more and more lately. Idk if i’m just overwelhmed. But at the same time, what if I have a family one day. My only child syndrome can’t just kick in with my kids.

Anyways, cleaned and then ate. After a while, I decided to go to the gym for my workout. I’ve been seeing a lot of stuff on celcius’ so I went to walgreens and grabbed one. Literally while drinking it, I had soooo much energy that I started making snaps. Even ran for 5 minutes at the gym, so at least the energy was being put into good use.

Halfway through my run, my headphone did die, so I went back into my car and charged them and then came back to the gym and did some legs workouts. My legs get so tense even if I don’t workout for a week. It’s time for a massage again.

Came home and made a veggie sandwich for my mom and I. It was really good, and even filmed b-roll while doing it. After dinner I decided to get the rest of my steps in, there’s was only 2k left so it went by quick.

The rest of the friend group kept asking me why I didn’t want to celebrate my bday with them, and then my other friend called too. They were freaking out but I didn’t feel like the other 2 were doing it from a place of guineness. It was from a place of drama.

My best friend called. I had this unfiltered enery from the celcius, so was yapping but I also gave her advice and kept telling her that even friendships need to be treated like boyfriends. It’s all the same fundamentals.

I can tell she’s going through friendship crisis at the moment but i feel like she doesn’t know what to believe.

Anyways, after that I started working on my vlog. I already had most of my Day 1 vlog done just needed to do some final adjustments but it was getting late, and I ended up posting at exactly 11:59pm.

At night since my other friend called, I felt like it wasn’t right to just ghost her, so I decided to tell her how I felt. Basically telling her I felt like she was constantly abandoning me.

8/10 - A lot of drama but the celsius was the highlight of my day, almost felt like I did it to feel something. Also happy I got some cleaning done.

Intuition - I’m right to stick my ground on friendships right now

Energy:

20 % - cleaning

40% - celsius/gym

20% - drama

20% - getting my vlog posted