5/2 - Trust the process

I woke up and wanted to feel good about myself, so washed my hair and styled it. I did get a little upset at me losing a lot of hair. Need to figure that out. Ate my breakfast and then had a couple of meetings.

After the meetings, I knew I needed to work on my day 1 content. I still wasn’t sure if I was going to just post the intro clip or intro + day 1.

My mom’s friend was going to come over, so despite being busy, I ended up cleaning all the bathrooms, and we tidyed the house. Tbh nothing cleans a house faster than a guest scare.

After she left, I finished my Day 1 clip as well, and exported my intro. It’s all getting to a level where I’m happy with it.

While getting my 10k steps in, I finally posted my intro videos. And lolol they got 0 views again. I did get sweaty before posting it and was a little nervous, but I also thought I would feel a little more emotional.

Idk if I’m still scared of being visible. Part of me is kind of happy that no one has seen anything yet, but I need to also remove that block and continue to show up.

I did have a moment of doubt, where I’m like am I crazy? Am I expecting too much? What if all this is a mistake? But did some chat gpting and also had to put myself in check. Technically, I still haven’t put out my actual message yet. It’s all been “pre” stuff. And it’s literally been 2 videos. I can’t give up now. I literally need to be consistent for at least 90 days, and just keep going.

Chat gpt also said this is my prep period by being consistent I’m showing the universe I’m ready to receive and the universe is testing me.

Also decided to watch a movie to celebrate. Watched Bhoolbaliya 3 on netflix and tbh I thought it was funny.

I did eat a lot today too. I’m coping with food, and I don’t really like it.

Intuition - Need to trust the process and keep going

7/10 - Chill day overall

Energy:

20% - meetings
20% - cleaning
20% - overthinking
40% - tiktok content