5/1 - Making progress + drained from work
I woke up with the intention to work on my content and get it out but that didn’t really happen. I ended up working on work stuff, and it really started to drain me out. My employees were basically fighting with each other and honestly I kind of didn’t care. It’s been a on-going issue for 3 years, they literally just can’t figure out how to work together. I was like they’ll figure it out because what if I wasn’t there? Then what would they do.. they’d figure it out.
I also got on a call with the girl that helps me with other stuff at work to really teach her my thought process. I’m moving like I am going to quit because I’m passing on everything. I wonder if they could feel the idc energy from me.
I feel it from a couple of people at work. But sometimes I have to remind myself that not everyone is intuitive or emotionally intelligent. Not everyone notices things like I do.
I also saw the girl I dislike post a bunch of personal work and it kind of raged me because like focus on your job. Am I jealous or am I fed up?
If she was good at her job and then had all these other external accomplishments, i’d admire her. But she sucks ass at her job and is just coasting. I’ve put in the work for years. She hasn’t.
And clearly it keeps bugging me, so i pulled the trigger and told the HR manger to start looking for a replacement because I can’t just not do it until September. It’s going to just keep on raging me and someone else deserves the job. She doesn’t. Also having no growth until September is ridiculous.
I’m going to treat this as my test to not fear karma. I’ve been trying to not care for months now, and it just sucks more energy out of me.
Anyways work had me feeling drained.
I worked on my intro clip and it’s finally at a place to close, so we’re good to go for tomorrow.
I had to edit some other clips, so did that and then wait to walmart and khols for some returns. Was starving by the time I came home, so had dinner and then did my steps.
Was playing around with my Day 1 clip and also was watching “how I met your mother” for a bit while getting my steps in. Also had a whole convo with my best friend about really not wanting anyone at my bday. I told her about I felt about my other friend. Tbh idk if I did the right thing for that or not. I kind was avoiding it because I don’t want to shit talk anymore.
Her sister ended up texting me at night too asking if I was sure to not want to celebrate.
Today was alsoooo May 1st. The energy in the air just felt different. I turn 27 in 18 days. Crazy because I don’t really feel 27. I still feel like I’m 25 at most because I clearly remember my 25th bday. Also, I feel like I’m lived 600 different lives by now with different people in different places.
7/10 - felt drained but happy that I’m done with my intro clip
Intuition - I did the right thing by making moves to fire her
energy:
50% - drained from work
30% - my tiktok content
20% - errands
