6/19 - Aura with being myself

Today started off as a bit of rough day because we woke up and went to my mom’s boss’ funeral. I was literally at this same funeral home on my friend’s last mendhi day for my other friend’s grandpa’s funeral and I’m back again.

It was a bit awkward cause they themselves never invited us to the funeral, the cleaning lady that worked for them, that was also my mom’s friend told us about it, so I was a bit nervous if they were going to tell us to leave or something. I know it’s dramatic but rich people really are like that.

Anyways, they had so many pictures of her everywhere and I realized how pretty she was when she was young. The last time I saw her was at her son’s wedding in October, so it was a lot seeing her at her funeral. She passed away in literally less than a year. Her health problems started right after her son got married and that to me was so sad.

My mom did cry a lot when we got closer to her, and after the funeral she went to their house with her friend to drop off food. I decided to go to Complimentary cafe and get myself a coffee.

After getting the coffee, I had to rush back home for a meeting that I had already pushed off because the funeral was taking longer than expected, so didn’t even shower and sat in my living room and took the call. She was basically an HR lady that’s helping me find the next Social Media Manager. She told me that she was leaving the company and that someone else was going to be taking on the role. Honestly, they’ve been very slow with the process.

But after that showered and worked for a bit. I needed to go to my friends mendhi today, so needed to get ready. The crazy thing is I didn’t even know what I was going to wear, lolol I was literally trying on clothes that came in from Amazon to try to figure it out.

I ended up going with this yellow shalwar, with my natural curly hair since I washed my hair too, and a Indian potli. I feel like everything about my look today was just so me. The color, the curls, the bag.

I even took my camera despite them not asking because I know my best friend would be mad if I didn’t and ended up being the first one there while they were still doing their makeup.

The set-up for the mendhi was so pretty. They did it in their backyard and honestly didn’t even look like it was their house because it just felt transformed.

I started love island for like 1 minute, while I was waiting for them and thats when the rest of my friends came in and they decided we were going to do a dance, suprisingly they were being super nice which was throwing me off a bit because it didn’t even look super fake.

Anyways, so we started to practice on a dance, and I ended up being the photographer of the night, which to me is like the bride has never even once said thank you and the disrespect she has is wild. They only reason why I did what I did was cause of my best friend and her family. I owe it to them.

We did our dance and I was so nervous that I literally forgot the steps. And I think literally this was a preparation for me for skills because what if I was so nervous that I forgot my ted talk speech? That would have killed me for life. I need to work on not forgetting things.

We did record it and all of pals ended up joining. The bright side is that I was super confident and played it off.

Another thing was that everyone literally kept complimenting me the whole night. I was the only one that wore yellow even though it was in the color palatte and everyone just said I had insane aura. We did get some group pictures in with my camera too.

At the end of the night, my other friend told me to go to my best friend’s room where the friend I don’t like asked me to be her bridesmaid with a cute box and honestly that caught me by surprise because what the I really thought she wasn’t going to ask me. And part of me felt a bit sad because now I can’t cut her off until her wedding in October, idk if this is back tracking my goals.

If she would have asked me in private, I wonder if I would have said no. Is that why she was being nice? So I wouldn’t say no to her?

At the end of the night I got my mendhi done, but she did a bad job on mine because I was one of the last ones to go. Overall thought I did talk to everyone and was just super confident because I felt good. Everyone was obsessed with my potli.

I also ended up dropping my other friend at home and ngl it was a bit awkward because I didn’t want to converse with her.

Intuition - I feel the most confident when I’m myself.

7/10 - Crazy switch up of a day with funeral, work, and mendhi but yeah

Energy:
30% - Work
30% - Funeral feels
30% - being myself
10% - mendhi