6/13 - Telling a story about my life
Woke up and finally posted my palm springs photo dump on my grid, and then went to the gym to walk and post my story dump too, but I started getting so overwelhmed.
Even if I had millions of followers right now, I would literally freak out from being so overwelhmed, and just do nothing about it to the point I’d lose all of them.
I’m still not ready, and I know it. But this is more about practice and getting the skill in place. I’m already in alignment for the dream.
Almost like I know I already got the job, but I’m still in training grounds before I excel and get a promotion.
This happened with my actual job too, where I got it, and trained, and then I flourished to a level where I know how to do EVERYTHING at work without anyone. It was insane growth.
For my story dump, I was freaking out on what I want to show and the persona I want to put out. Despite this literally being my job, it’s way harder than it looks.
Also, just keeping up with the asthetics. I’ve done recaps before and for some reason, they were so much more easier because I was just giving facts about the trip.
This time I’m showing my personality. It’s not just about the trip anymore. I’m letting people into my life, and showing the good and the bad.
So I did a couple of then stopped. Came back and needed to eat, and then had some meetings.
Took my meetings, got overwelhmed, so took a nap, worked a bit more. The events I’m planning are all such a headache right now too, so need to chill out.
Continued posting some more recaps, got taco bell, ate it with mom, and then got overwelhmed again so called my best friend.
My conflict - I want to be real, but also inspirational, but also funny, but also not that concieted, but also show the things I need to show, and also make it all astheitc at the same time.
The perception part is what’s tripping me up. I’m now telling a story about my life, not just posting to post.
I’ve also been rethinking my tiktok strategy. I feel like even the serious side is only one part of me.. my life overall is so different. I’m sassy, funny, angry, etc. It’s not just serious all the time.
5/10 - Was very overwhelmed with posting. There were many times where I just didn’t want to do it. I’m still figuring out how to make social media a language for me, which again I’m shook because this is literallt what I went to school for and is my job.
Intuition - God is training me with the skills now that I’m mentally there. It literally all makes sense on devine timing.
Energy:
50% - Crashing out over posting
15% % - Feeling overwhelmed from work + social
15% - steps
15% - trying to decompress
5% - blank
