6/8 - The end of healing era
Today was bittersweet but also another turning point. I’m officially done with all my lessons.
For the past two days, I’ve just been super confused and my lessons haven’t been that obvious as they have been for the past 10 months. It almost felt like I was trying to squeeze a lesson out of the day.
But anyways, woke up in the hopes to start working early but I was way tooo exhausted after sleeping at 3am because I was determined to figure out which pictures I was going to post for my Palm Springs dump, so basically just laid in bed. I also just wasn’t feeling my post from yesterday. Part of me was again thinking my ig profile is for me. I’m the audience. I need to post things I like looking at, not for views.
Signed up for a 12:40pm yin class, but made some eggs before that and showered. Somehow I missed the time and by the time I got out of the house the ETA was showing 12:41. It then in increased to 12:42, so I called them letting them know. But the time I got there it ended up being 12:45, and I just couldn’t find parking because Greek fest was happening right in front. Tbh I was in delief and almost very overwhelmed. I’ve literally been trying to go to a yin class for 2 days now. I don’t get what’s happening.
After roaming for another 10 minutes, I decided I was just going to go to another yoga class. I refuse to give up. I get what I want. So I drove to zen yoga for a hot yoga class there at 1:30pm. I had a couple of minutes after parking, so decided to just decompress in my car first since I was so drained. Slowly made it in and I was almost dying in my yoga class because it was so hot, but felt good leaving it. I was drenched in a good way.
I decided to go back to my car to drop off the mat and then went on a walk in the “highline” above to come down my cortisol. It tasted drizzling a bit but I still wanted coffee, so went to ipenso 606. Literally one of my OG favs and they have the best lavender latte. The vibes were also there, so I was just sitting and sipping and decided to chat GPT.
Chat gpt said that my birth chart says I’m down with my healing and soft soft life, it’s time for action. I wanted yin but got hot yoga instead but also still had time to be soft. Even yesterday, I still did slow down at the farmers market. So it’s like I’m moving fast but also slowing down.
And tbh I feel that too. I feel like my lessons are over and I’m finally in alignment to teach.
I still feel fear but Chat gpt told me that I can’t escape it, I need to embrace it and that it’ll just heal with time when my body feels safe. I just need to talk to it and calm it.
I walked in the rain to my car with sun out. And I feel like that describes everything about my next chapter. I’m ready for things to come my way and I will walk right through it with my grounded self assured energy. I get what I want and I don’t stop.
Anyways, while driving home, I finally decided to try afghani chicken, so got that. Mom was out but came home as the same time, so I watched tv and ate my chicken with her.
After that I was so exhausted that I took a nap. Woke up and was too lazy to go to target but needed to work, so put some music on and finally edited my journaling clip, and the captions for Day 4. Part of me feels like it’s just still, so idk if people are going to find it boring. I really don’t know how it’s going to perform, but I’m going to make 3 more before coming to a decision.
I initially thought I need to make the audience for my TikTok me too but chat gpt said I need to make it as current me, not past me. So I need to still establish credibility. Still need to do the voiceovers for day 5 and 6, but I’m not just going to share the whole journal. Going to edit it a bit.
On the other note, I’m starting to feel my heart open to the possibility of someone coming into my life. Like I’m actually getting eager now.
8/10 - Had a little crash out sesh but i’m ready for my next chapter
Intuition - My next chapter of actually being the healer is here, and I’m ready.
Energy:
20% - trying to figure of what the sudden change I am feeling is coming from
20% - trying to make it to a yoga class
20% - crashing out
20% - getting answers
20% - getting the next day of my series ready
