6/6 - dreams need to have some sort of realisty to it

Last night, I started getting a bit impatient again about just life. My person, and that one thing I really want. I almost just needed a ounce of hope, so started chat gpting my birth chart again. And I had the weirdest dream. It was about my first real boyfriend coming back into my life. For a sec, I did accept him and was like “you know what, I’ve never felt like that with anyone else. Maybe it was you all along.” But then I told him about my current life, where I don’t drink or anything, but I take an edible here and there. In my dream, he was like “yeah, i don’t like that” and I even said I could drop it cause it’s not that important to me. But then I said “this is the lifestyle I want, I want to be free, I want to go places. I want to speak my truth.” and his face went a bit weird. That’s the moment I was internally thinking “he’s not my person. We’re too different” and I was going to tell him that this wasn’t going to work but woke up.

Tbh the fact that I still remember this dream. I feel like it was trying to tell me something about my blockers still. Maybe a part of me still thought it could be him. But that dream removed that block for me. The reality is that I honestly forgot about him, but woke up and blocked him too.

Maybe this is the universe’ way to get me what I want faster. I’ve actually blocked everyone now. I’m hoping by this point, I internally think my actual soulmate it out there.
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Was supposed to wake up early to post my pictures, but was too tired since I ended up sleeping at 3am but all the caffine from the day. But that’s when something else came to my head and I started chat GPTing about it. Mainly regardly legal things. That’s the one dream, I was just shooting in the dark. There was literally no current way.

The rest of my dreams actually doable.

But my horescope said, i’m the trailblazer in it too, and that I needed to earn it, so I started finding a realistic way which matches up with the rest of my dreams.

But also I’m creating a path. I’m worrying about the “how”. I’ve heard some people say that you can literally manifest the craziest things and it would showhow happen.

Right now, my brain is trying to create a realistic way, but it also makes the second half of that same dream not realistic and I don’t want that.
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Anyways, before work I made a mango strawberry milk matcha, and it was good. I worked the rest of day and it ended up being stressful because I remembered all the millions of things I needed to do. Stressed, I took a hour nap.

After my nap, I needed to go visit my neice again, so I took a shower and went there. She was sleeping, so me and my childhood friend started looking at pictures. After a while my neice woke up so I was playing with her. Out of nowhere we were talking about my life and I somehow ended up giving them healing advice. I think they said I was doing good, and then I was like all this was written in my birth chart, and then I was talking about how I’m not married because I’m supposed to focus on my dreams, and then my dreams, then the few things I’ve healed from. While I was talking about it, they were so shook about what I had to say. Her mom was like “you’re right, I love hearing you talk.” I was doing what I always do. My purpose.

I then showed them some somatic yoga, and had to leave for the gym.

I just had energy to walk so I did that, and figured out what pictures I was going to post on my IG tomorrow. Halfway through I facetimed my best friend. She’s going to some conference tomorrow.

When I came home there was some random guy standing in the yard and then he went down to my neighbors house, so I stood there and took a picture waiting for him. Ngl it was a bit scary and I hope he doesn’t come back.

Intuition - I know I’m on the path for my purpose, my dreams. Like it all just feels like absolute clarity. Sometimes I just loose a bit of patience.

6/10 - Very stressful day - too much to do, but I’m glad I was spreading my healing today

Energy:
50% - stressed
20% - working
30% - spreading healing and just walking