1/15/26 - (incomplete) removing importance from anxiety inducing things & resting

Slept 10+ hours again and had a bad dream but this time my life got “normal” again in my dream. Idk if that means I’m transitioning.

Hanumankind’s manager emailed back asking for numbers, and I emailed back. Normally, I would play the numbers game. I did have a bit of anxiety on what he might thing about my number but I decided to not give my anxiety importance and was working while watching new girl. To almost lift the anxiety off of the hard tasks and treat them as casual as texting my friends. Also emailed the dry bar lady back.

Part of me did have a bit of anxiety with all these “undecided” tasks but I told myself that by removing the importance I’m increasing my capacity to hold portfolio work. If I had my own angency this is how most of it would be in the limbo until it’s decided. I can’t live in anxiety.

Tried to get some of the stuff from etsy, and then ordered a chimichanga for dinner. It was okay and wasn’t as good as I remembered it.

Today was again a resting day but I did feel the energy built up again, and suddenly have the urge to want to do more home photoshoots so texted my best friend.

Had a Facetime call with her at night too and she told me she had a talk with her sister that’s about to get married.

Anyways, I think I’m in the process of just making my life simple and noise free.

I need to stop overthinking external projects too.