1/7/26 - Reconnecting with my best friend

Last night, ended up being a plot twist. My best friend called me crying because her 21 year old sister wanted to get married and she was just so frustrated that her whole family was on board and was basically ruining her sister’s life. She was so mad at literally she can see her sister making the wrong decision but she can’t do anything about it. Tbh if I was in her position I would feel pissed too, but I think this a part of her healing, where she can’t take responsibility for other people’s actions.

Similar to what I learned and am still learning. What my mom and dad decide to do is something that’s a part of their path, especially my dad. I can’t be mad at myself for “not doing enough” or carry that guilt of them ruining their own lives. It’s a part of their path, and as a sister I can see how hard that might be.

Similar to having kids. Literally feel like I’m going through lessons of motherhood right now too. Where you just have to let them follow their own path.

Anyways, she was crying but felt better by the end of her rant. I ended up writing a message that she could send to her sister. It didn’t come from overdoing. She didn’t even ask, it came from my heart.
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Woke up and went to my pilates class. I was a bit scared to drive and be out, but still went. I kept my natural curly hair. Also, I was dying in pilates class, but did all the moves.

After pilates, I went to this coffee shop called nettare. No one else was working there so it was a bit awkward staying for too long, so I only stayed for an hour. I got this really good breakfast sandwich and the coffee was good too. Also I felt that peace because it was open aired and just felt like a lot of sunlight. The vibes overall were resteraunt like though.

Went to the bank after and then went to my best friend’s house to print things. I need to get my tax stuff resolved asap, so I know if I should switch accountants this year or not. Anyways, my friend was giving me the debrief and told me she was coming over because her younger sister was going to tell her parents and she didn’t want to be there.

Got some steps in after getting home, and then she came over. We just talked for most of it. Then made these healthy date brownies. She said she was going to sleep over, so I made salmon and udon noodles for dinner.

After that, we just went into my room and just talked. I told her about the whole presence thing and how I need to regulate my nervous system around her and everything. We talked about what we see in the future for each other and just hyped each other up. I wasn’t drained today. If anything, I think we both got stuff off of our chest.

I did started getting sore though and could barely walk by the end of the night. I ended up sleeping with my mom because I was too lazy to clear out the third bedroom, and my best friend left in my room.

9/10 - I was exhausted and it was a long day of no down time but I feel like my best friend and I connected again

Intuition - I feel like we needed this

Energy:
25% - working out + errands
75% - time with best friend