9/22 - ready but tough

I feel my heart toughening. Like no one can fuck with me anymore. I refuse to believe all the rom coms and love bombing. I feel unstoppable.

But at the same time, I feel ready for my person. I really want my person.

Although, I need to remind myself that if I want it super badly it’s not going to happen. I need to stay detached. I need to be okay with my next person not being the one too.

But universe please I’m putting the intention out there. I’m ready for my person.

Although, it still messes with me that the universe gave me every sign that J was supposed to be in my life until one day it didn’t. Like how does that make sense. The day I was like I’m not listening to the universe anymore, the signs stopped supporting him being in my life.

And that still shocks me. Why didn’t the universe just stop it in the initial stages when I asked for clarity then? Why have it drag so long.

8/10 - it feels like another day.