7/13/25 - love island watch party was wild
Surprisingly we woke up pretty early today for how late we slept, but it was mainly because my friend’s friend slept over and she came screaming into our room saying my friend wasn’t there. Honestly, I wasn’t panicking because I was convinced to went home with the guy to get D. But we called her and yeah she was sleeping. She came home and we all debriefed for a bit. My friend’s friend’s new boyfriend was also there.
Seeing her with him brought instant trauma. He reminded me a lot of V to the point he even kind of looked like him. She reminds me a lot of my younger self. Someone that just wants love and see’s the good in everyone. She also got this guy 4 weeks after breaking up with her other boyfriend and everyone thinks it’s the girls fault but literally being that person, I swear the next person you want just magically presents themselves to teach you their lesson and you don’t even see it coming. It’s crazy. And she definitely has so much potential. Something also tells me, she’s going to have the same healing journey as me. She also asked me about my drinking journey.
Anyways, while they were catching up I decided to go to a coffee shop to get coffee and ended up going to Sightglass. A coffee shop I used to go to with V and then went to by myself once. It was the closest nice coffee shop by our mosso apartment.
I also went to go sit in the same spot that I usually sat in and I couldn’t help but think it was the me right now that was talking to old me. Some places just feel so special to me in different parts of my life and it almost feels like a soul connection to that spot. Sightglass is one of them, so is the pier. The place I walk, idk they just feel special like I’m going to come back to the same spot as a different version of myself over and over again. And instead of me coming back to the same spot. I wonder if it’s just future me’s trying to talk to me because in that moment when I was there I definitely was talking to younger me, “Like please leave, you did the right thing and you’re just so much at peace now”.
So does time even exsist at this point of future me and past me are all talking to each other in different places. I felt this way the first time I visited SF too back in 2018. I just knew it was more than just a place I was going to visit. It had meaning. And then I ended up moving there 3 years later, and now it’s my second home.
Anyways, I had my coffee and crossaint and was sitting next to a cute boy too while I was having all these reflections but left. On my way back, I saw my friend’s other friend at the door.
We went up and I started watching my leftover episodes of Love Island before going to our watch party. The other 2 girls fell asleep. As soon as it was time, I woke them up and we got ready to leave.
We decided to go to this place called the chapel and at first from the outside it looked dry but at soon as we went inside it was crazy. All the seats were almost taken. I was literally sitting at an angle, but we ordered a chicken sandwich, chicken tenders, and drinks. The orders and everything were soooo crazy that lmao we ended up getting an extra order of chicken tenders and fries for free. The watch party was super lit, everyone’s reactions in real life was also so fun. Highly recommend. Half way, they literally had a whole twerking contest, so I took videos of everything. In the hopes to make a voiceover. The ending was as expected, but we had tons of fun.
Throughout the thing though my friend’s sister looked a little sad, I kept asking them if they wanted to leave.
On our way home we called a waymo, and recorded some other things, we called ran into my friend’s guy friend before going home.
As soon as we got home and changed, that guy friend came over and we just yapped with him. For some reason, I got so comfortable that I was just completely yapping and being myself. It was crazy but I fucked with his energy. I did overshare a bit and the girls even called it out. I need to stop doing that, idk why I think it’s okay to overshare. I hated it when my friend overshared yesterday, so maybe this was just giving me a taste of my own medicine on how others might feel.
Anyways the guy left, I packed, chatted with the girls for a bit and fell asleep for a bit. I needed to leave the house at 4:30am, so had a couple of hours to sleep.
10/10 - I had so much fun today and just a good amount of reflection time too
Intuition - I really do think it’s the me from right now that was talking to old me. That’s probably why I feel strongly about timesquare’s steps too. The future me probably talks to me from there. The girl that’s a billboard for her book.
Energy:
30% - reflecting
60% - having fun
10% - being there for my friend’s friend that felt depressed
