7/11/25 - soulmate reminder + trusting devine protection

This time I wasn’t scared at all going to the airport. I was super chill and just knew I was divinely protected. This time I put it into action and literally felt no type of anxiety for flying unlike the rest of the times.

Last night, I was crashing out on how I should show up to my next person. Like I’m such a lover girl but I’m supposed to put myself first but if I do that, then I have a guard. Idk it just all felt like a lot. What if I be myself too much and get played again. How do I not repeat the cycle for myself.

But then at the airport, it just hit me that when I met my “soulmate preview”, it all just worked. I didn’t have to do anything. It all just felt like alignment. That’s how my soulmate is going to feel like. I don’t have to force anything or worry about overgiving or not being myself. The right person will feel like the right person, the minute I see them without trying just like how I felt like with my soulmate preview.

I was just being myself, but not in a overgiving way. It’s hard to explain but it just all worked.

Anyways, I was having so much trouble sleeping on the plane and was just sooo tired but thankfully there were no issues. Landed safely. My friend was running a bit late to come pick me up, so.I went to the bathroom and got ready. I wanted my Tiktok to look cute. She came by the time I was done straightening my hair, so met her downstairs and she had to take a quick meeting, so stayed in the car and started doing my makeup.

In the groupchat, she accidently said “shalini wants to know when we’re going for dinner”, so lolol she kind of spilled the secret a bit and it wasn’t a total surprise.

They moved to a new place that was super pretty but when we got there, she was taking a call so I went and hid in her room and then surpised her when she came out. Lmao the first question she asked me was “where’d I come from” it was literally such a bad reaction but still funny.

We then spent time just debriefing. We ordered some breakfast sandwiches too and then all of us just took a nap. I was exhausted.

After that got ready to go see my coworkers kid, but he kept pushing it back, so I had the girls try the fafra and jalebi first. They liked it and then the girls dropped me off to my coworkers.

My coworkers daughter was teething so she was a bit fussy but we went on a walk and she was in my arms the whole time. We hung out for a hour but honestly the hour felt forever. Him and I don’t click like that. It was just a nice catch up. He thought I took ozempic, so I had to explain to him exactly what I did to lose weight and how I did it.

Anyways, after that, my friends picked me up cause we were going to go to dinner at their sister’s house. But before we ended up stopping at a bar where her friends were while we were waiting for her sister to come home. Once they came home, we were there but I had to take a quick call so did that. All of us ended up eating a burger. My chicken sandwich was really good and the nuggets tasted like mcdonalds.

We played game for a bit and then went to local edition. I love that bar. That’s where the rest of her friends were too, so met a bunch of other people there too. It’s crazy how I feel like my SF social life started after I moved out of SF. Meanwhile, I prayed for this the whole time I was in SF. But we made some aura farming titkoks and I was drained by then but we still went to the club.

The club had such great music that all my tiredness went away and I was having the time of my life. It was so fun. The girls and I didn’t like this one guy that was the guy we knew’s friend. We thought he was weird. But anyways after that we went to some other guy’s house who had a dog, and they were doing coke there but me and my other friend wanted to go home, so we left. The other sister didn’t want to leave, so we let her stay but we kept pressuring her to come home.

After that, I went to the room and knocked out. I was exhausted.

Intuiton - I think the love life crash out was necessary to show me that this weekend I don’t need to force a connection or overextend myself to anyone. I’ll just know. I also think me not being scared of my trip was a good sign that I’m also healing my nervous system.

10/10 - busy day but I had tons of fun

Energy:
30% - sleep deprevied
70% - had tons of fun