12/21/25 - Slow day, creative timing, a version of me right now

Overall today was a chill, slow day. I read my book the wedding people, for most of the day and rested. I also created a final flow of the pictures yesterday and woke up obsessed with it. Like I kept replaying it and everything.

The flow of the pictures I picked represents the version of me right now. A version of me that’s soft and unbothered. Loves without caring about what anyone thinks of her internally. But it still doesn’t feel right to just post, idk. I feel a bit of urgency, so I’m going to wait it out until next week.

On the other note, my mom and I had a fight and I called her stupid again. In the moment, I just get so heated and then have guilt overward. I genuinely need to break this cycle of anger, resentment, and then guilt with better boundaries.

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I was going insane over not having an idea for the Times Square billboard for months but I just couldn’t have. The thing I needed inspiration from hadn’t happened yet. I was literally beating myself over nothing.

Moral of the story is I basically need to chill when I don’t have inspiration for some time. Just cause I get a ounce of an idea doesn’t mean it needs to be completed. Sometimes the idea has just begun to sprout.

Anyways, got my steps in, washed my hair at night and fell asleep.

Intuition - I need to be more patient with my creative timing

9/10 - Felt like a very slow and peaceful day overall, besides the argument with mom

Energy:
25% - feeling my pictures/shows me who I am right now
75% - slow day energy