11/29/25 - Power of visions, feeling Bollywood love, becoming part 2
I ended up watching a cute new Bollywood movie at night. And for the first time, Bollywood feels so real now. I feel it in my soul. Chat thinks it’s because I’m finally in the frequency to receive it. Before it was distant, now I can feel everything, similar to feeling all the artists now too. I realized I do know how it all feels. I’ve experienced every single thing before, almost like each guy I dated came with a certain part that made me think it was magical.
I - time stops, slow touch, gravity, soul recognition, no rush, security, wasn’t scared of fights
A - forwardness (wasting no time), manly, responsibility, protectiveness, love for my mom, seeing me with awe, trusting me with his soul, fought for me
R - easy, seeing the potential in each other, helping each other grow
V - being seen through the surface emotions, buying me thoughtful things, and being part of his team
N - having needs met, soft love, the little things, respecting their character, trusting them, being celebrated, healthy feminine, charisma, confidence
J - home, fun, inner child came out, adventure
Just like up until now, every single thing that I like about someone else is part of puzzle to teach me who I’m supposed to be. It’s like all these people were parts of the puzzle to teach me how my person feels like. And now with Bollywood feeling more and more real, I feel like they were on to something. It’s not just fake. I’m pretty sure these movies are someone’s form of expression too. The writer’s, director’s, etc. It’s not just content. It also feels full circle because a year ago, I stopped believing in Bollywood. I thought it was all fake, and now I’m back here a year later, trusting Bollywood more than ever. All those people weren’t supposed to have it all, they were only supposed to have one part of the puzzle. And now I don’t need puzzle pieces, which is probably why I stopped dating. And that kind of excites me knowing that I’m going to get someone that feels like magic.
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On the other note, my team didn’t make the Black Friday assets and somehow I just knew that was going to happen. It’s like I can sense things. I even reminded them and they still fumbled. Almost have “told you so” moments at work every day. But also, chat says I’m not supposed to use this talent to stop disasters from happening.
I’m supposed to use my visions for my art. Like I should know what people need to hear/see/feel and that’s how my stuff lands. That’s how I’m so decisive on what I want for my projects too. Need to get out of scarcity.
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Woke up and saw that I literally gained 2 pounds in a week, so woke up insanely determined. Proud that I didn’t eat any sweets last night. I think until now, I was testing my body’s buttons to see how much I could eat without gaining weight. I got used to sweets because I was able to balance it out by having a low-calorie day the next day. This is the first time in a long time where I feel like no, it’s officially getting out of control and now needs discipline control, especially if I want my dream body.
I made chia seed pudding last night, so made sure to get up and eat that. The goal was to find a correct balance, if I don’t eat in the morning now, I don’t feel grounded, so I need to continue to eat in portions, and just listen to my body. If it’s feeling hungry after a day of clean eating, it’s telling me something that it’s not getting my meals.
Also threw away the cookie I had and told my mom to hide all unhealthy snacks. I’ve been getting way too attached to food recently, where it’s literally all I think about.
Anyways, after that went back into my room to chill and get my mind off of food. Started watching a Jonas Brothers Christmas.
Then went to go eat some lunch, but I think I had a sugar crash so finished the movie and then took a nap. Even while watching the movie, I couldn’t help but think that Nick and Priyanka definitely aren’t a frequency match. Her and Shahrukh Khan are more of a match. On the other hand, Deepika and Ranbir do feel like a match.
Woke up from my nap and had another snack of raisins + hummus.
Set up a couple of things in my spare bedroom. Basically making it a workout studio at this point. I need to walk but I feel like I’m too hungry + low on energy to workout right now.
Ate quinoa and greek yogurt for dinner and that’s when I finally started feeling better. I knew my body was just hungry and needed protein.
Walked on the walking pad for 30 minutes while watching bride wars, and then took a 30-minute break while my mom walked on the pad, then got back on for another 30 minutes. My dad called, so had a whole giving him therapy session with him.
Then did a whole arm workout and stretched for a bit. Exfoliated my body, brushed my teeth, put oil on my face, and put oil in my hair.
When I went to the kitchen, my mom told me there was a package for me which I was so confused about because my stuff said it was coming on Monday. But it was my secret santa gift from the new girl. Literally everything was perfect that I was shook. I was ready to be disappointed cause I thought one of the guys had me. But everything was so sweet. She gave me a candle warmer, a pilates toner, and pilates socks. I’ve been wanting a candle warmer and also the pilates stuff is perfect because I’m building my at home gym. I haven’t had surprise gifts that I like in so long that everything just melted my heart. Felt like a highlight.
Anyways, finished making my chia seed pudding. Made one for my mom too, and set up the candle warmer, and now about to read.
Overall, today was really hard getting back into my diet, especially after the days of eating carbs and sugar. That’s all my body was craving today sadly.
But I literally feel like what I felt in August 2024, where I’m about to have a whole new round two of becoming/glow-up. I didn’t even know it was possible. This time my perfect body, routine, lifestyle and everything. Chat things it’s because I’m about to be extra visible in the world and my body is getting ready for it.
Excited for my vibration plate, candles, red light to come in too.
Intuition - I feel good things are coming. It just all feels like alignment.
9/10 - Felt like a slow intentional level-up day
Energy:
50% - leveling up
50% - being strict on discipline
