9/20/25 - Community

Couldn’t sleep yesterday because I was too worried about my outfit for the event. At first, I thought I was going to custom make something but it feels like too much work. I even reached out to my dad.

At the end of the night, I decided I was going to get a designer item. And for the first time in life, I don’t feel scared or feel like I’m wasting money. Because now I think money is used to amplify power. Just seeing how much my relationship with money has changed in the past year is crazy. I used to be scared of losing a single dollar. Living in fear that my money was going to go away.

Now I fully trust the universe is on my side.

Always woke up in the middle of the night scared my house was going to flood. I for real have PTSD at this point and this is why I can’t let my landlord go.
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Woke up and it was kind of a gloomy vibe. My friend came over at 1pm and we went to go do our blouses. She was really quick with it but I was getting exhausted so we left.

My friend decided to chill with me, so I made her coffee and used the new aldi creamer. 10/10 very good. We ended up talking about politics and it wasn’t draining at all. It’s not like how I felt with my best friend. If anything the conversation was actually pretty energizing. I know her and I aren’t talking right now, but I’ve always known in my heart that we’re connected. There’s nothing in the world that can tear us apart. There’s like a soul connection feeling. No matter how made we are, there’s a lot of love between us and we can both feel it. I’m not mad about this time that’s “lost”. I feel like she’s truly meant for me.

After she left, I watched more of the show I started yday. Aryan khan’s show. It really gives you perspective into the nepo world and how even when someone has everything, they don’t have themselves.

Anyway, then this other person came over, so made them coffee too. It was full on day of making coffee, but wasn’t draining.

My cousin also invited us to his housewarming party next week. It’s crazy how my mom always thought my lack of socializing would be the reason we would separate from extended family, but I’m the one reconnecting everyone now.

Intuition - People are making their way back into my life the more I’m learning to figure out how to separate other people’s energies.

10/10 - Felt like a cozy perfect day with loved ones.

Energy:
60% - socializing with people
40% - watching netflix