8/25 - Trusting your gut.

I thought I’d be sadder than I was today, so I’ll give it an 8/10. Today was supposed to be my and J’s 1st anniversary. But I didn’t feel sad. Even a month ago, when we were still together, it didn’t feel like this 1st anniversary was worth celebrating. You celebrate things you’re proud of, and honestly, I wasn’t proud of the relationship. The relationship didn’t feel like it was progressing. It felt like it was only regressing, so I didn’t feel sad. I felt like whatever happened, happened for a good reason, and my gut just knew he wasn’t the one.

But I couldn’t help but wonder what he was thinking. Does he also feel happy that everything ended? Is he ignoring? Idk it’s just a curiosity I guess.

But overall, it’s also been 25 days of no contact, and I still feel like I’m doing great. I can’t believe at one point, I thought I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t break up, and now I don’t even feel his void or want him back in my life.

That brings me to today’s topic of gut. I had a conversation with my friend today about how she was scared to make the wrong decision and wants someone to make it for her. And I told her that everyone needs to get to a point where they listen to their gut, until then life will keep teaching them lessons.

That also made today a little better because I know the act was hard, but I knew my gut told me J wasn’t the one. At that time, it seemed impossible to detach but I still knew I needed to, and the universe supported me to the point where I couldn’t believe I gave him so much power. I didn’t need him all along, and the universe gave me strength to detach.

So, overall, always listen to your gut and act on it. Even when it seems impossible, the universe will support you. The universe will give you strength.